LY ;)

2008-12-20T14:13:00.001+08:00

home isnt like home

2008-10-25T00:21:00.003+08:00

people always ask me, do you miss home when you stay in hall?
NO. my answer will be firm.
when im home, nobody is at home. so what if my house is big? it doesnt have the home-y feeling. i dont like that. even at wee hours, nobody is home. my parent love to drink and hang out at coffee shop, thats their life. my brother comes home after work, sis dont know what the fuck she do outside. she say she is working but work till so late? everyday must socialise until so late just to get customer for her damn insurance? nonsense! otherwise, parent will be quarrelling over money. then dad will mention about divorce, selling car, selling house. mom will be the one who love money so much. but in fact, mom just wanna save money for the family, for emergency? what the fuck is my father thinking. is he dumb or what. why cant he think the positive side? why is he damn ego so big? childish like fuck. drink and drink. afew days a week can but everyday? if mom wanna rest early and go home? what will he say? you go home first. mom will think of his safety when he is out there? somemore he drink and drive. he is damn selfish. even after mom being hospitalized like twice. to him, its nth. its the past alr. doesnt matter anymore i guess. fucked up.

i hate home!

life isnt that good i guess. although i have abit of fun here and there. sprained my ankle, sun burnt. quiz, reports and presentation. super busy, bike rally stuff. oh i got my car licence

anyway, i received a present from donalds! =) love the eyore and the exam pack you all got me=) thanks alot. oh thanks for the pantyliner too. although you all wanted to buy pad. haha guys just cant differentiate with the stuffs that girl use. cute.

my uni life rox when im in sch. when i come home. it will be just studying. i seldom go out anymore. havent been watching movie since sch starts. how come..? i wonder why.

=(

cheap thrilllllllll =D

2008-09-21T11:39:00.003+08:00

alright. I believe my blog have been dead for quite some time.
since i have no mood to study now, might as well revive it? lols

hows life in uni? great, fun, exciting, stress and tiring. i love the people i meet there.HALL 11 ROCKS.althought it isnt a sports hall but still we play sports for the fun of it. at the beginning, i keep wanting to change hall but now.. i want to continue staying in hall 11.

i have been quite busy with sch because i have some commitment. i join cheerleading for my hall, hall games for volleyball, netball and road relay. as for sport club, i got in bike rally as RO and SU16 gls! haha i love everything la! hopefully i can cope.

im too lazy to post photos here. you all can view them at my facebook? most of them are there. i dont know why ntu ppl are so into facebook. i abandoned my facebook like 2 years ago? then now i start to use it again. lol.

my nickname now is one egg in chinese. damn! oh another nick name is chipmunk. all thanks to my roomie. haha she say i look like one la. hahaha

some photo of my room!

our curtain. pretty right!

my roomie's bed

her study table and look at the amount of food on the shelves.

my bed

my noticeboard. haha my medals from ibg(inter-block games)

finally my study table,food still okay only.

SUAY-ED

2008-08-03T15:40:00.004+08:00

NOTHING SPECIAL
LIYI LOST HER WALLET AGAIN!
and the best thing is that my IC is inside.
if there isnt any kind soul who will return to me, this will be the third time i'm going to make IC. I didnt even tell mom about it because i know she will scold me like shit. yes its my fault, i admit. but i cant do anything right?
my instructor say that i need my ic for my tp, or else my passport. meaning i have to get from my mom and i need to tell her why. in the end, she will get to know abt it. no matter what,i'll be dead.=( i hope that someone who pick up my wallet will return all the impt doc and take the money la.wah lau.no mood no mood

I MISS SU15 DISNEY!
i love sports camp. i love my groupmate esp jietong,samuel,ren kun and eugene. not forgetting my gls jiade and peiyi =)) sports camp is all about pushing ourselves to the limit, minds over body and team spirit. war games is the highlights of the camp where we challenge against wars: disney, sea, music and toons world. the finale was even better. it will drains all the energy i have left. 7days of camp that i will never forget. IT ROCKS!!!!!

i shall describe the finale;
each world have 2 sedan chair made. one grp of girl will carry one sedan with a girl, another grp of guys will carry the other sedan with a girl on it too.
first challenge; jump from 3m into the pool then swim a lap. guys jump from 5m instead of 3m.
climb up a long flight of stairs. carry sedan to next station, climb up a wall with rope then climb down.mud crawl with your back where we have to lean back our head. walk inside a drain that is quite dark together as a team. then carry sedan to next station. guys sit on tyres where girls have to pull then across the field. super tiring la. then river crossing with a rope above the water,so we just pull ourselves across. followed by soap hill, with our human tower where we climb up the hill by stepping butt, shoulder butt shoulder.i feel pain for the guys. then next is girl loaded on the lorry on a upslope, guys have to pull the lorry until it reaches a distance. carry sedan all the way back to the ending point. by now, you can see that alot of us are very tired. this finale is about timing, we are quite fast,1hr and6min if im not wrong but one girl withdrawn so we have penalty. its okay, all of us gave our best!
HEH MY LOVE FOR SPORTS CAMP!!!
STEADY BO!!
im looking forward to world lunch!

starting school tmr and im quite excited.i'll be staying in hall so ppl dont miss me okay. i'll try to borrow lappy from my aunt so i can use it in school before i buy a new lappy=)

haha i have a newfoundeyecandy

eat money eat money

2008-07-16T14:05:00.004+08:00

HE EAT MY MONEY!
FIRST, he bring my confidence down.
now he eat my money.
NO INTEGRITY SHIT.

okay nevermind,i'm cool now. A lesson learnt; i need to count my money first before handing it over to him. freaking 50bucks. Its alot to me since i'm pretty broke.BROKE.

people change, infact everything change around us. it depends on how we accept it. some people cant, so they choose to leave. so we let them be? yeah, i'll let them go.
Thats why now, i believe that relationship in teenage like is nothing even if you're together for 6/7 years? its nothing. wait till you grow up, when you start working. Thats the real test to your relationship. <3>companionship-lotsoflove
anyway, i got into sports camp. Hope it will be so fun but the theme for this year is pretty dumb.DISNEY WORLD. worst, my group name is donald duck. like wtf? lol but nevermind, i love camps!

im jobless and i annonuce myself broke or probably bankrupt.lols

nonexistent

2008-07-05T17:42:00.005+08:00

I cant blame them.only to blame myself. all because they did it unknowingly. Our conversation seems to be reduntant or for the sake of it. I seriously cant help it but to think this way.. thats why i chose to keep quiet. Being ignored once is perfectly fine but so many time? SO fucking wrong la. Moreover,someone agreed with me when i bring this up.. ha yes i'm going paranoid.

bad days;
lappy gone, bro lost it
EVRYTHING IS FREAKING GONE!

I'm not happy.

drift-i wont mind
i cant be bothered any more...

I'll quit

2008-06-18T14:06:00.002+08:00

For my own benefit, i'll quit drinking.
no more alcohol. if not for very very special occasion then i'll touch alittle.
i can do it. yes i will.

anyway,appeal result is here. I got into material engineering in ntu.=)
mom allow me to stay in hostel too. so im going to apply for it. shld i? heh

I'll be leaving sony ericsson on 13th july. there's a combined engineering camp on 14th to 20th july. shld i go? i so wanna go bangkok.

Reality

2008-06-13T00:49:00.003+08:00

if only that dream i had was real.
it makes me smile from cheek to cheek. seriously
beautiful dream i must say.
but i know its just a dream
its something that's impossible.
i can easily swear with my life that it wont happen.
need to wake up.be real. ha
nothing is impossible?now i totally disagree.

Friday the thirteen.
Hope it wont be a real bad day.

ntu replied my mail; appeal's result will be sent in batch till end of june.so long la. i cant wait. everyone please pray for me. i need luck man.=(

SE is getting more and more screwed up.stupid politics. ignorance from some ppl, as if im invisible.fuck up!

i'll be there for you

2008-06-04T23:00:00.004+08:00

=)

offically graduated from np!
i didnt take alot of photos because my dad's car went out of battery. why? my dumb sis forgot to off the light when she left the car. how smart. in the end, wey chih and some lecturer went to the rescue. it was prata then kbox till 2am with classmate. fun and enjoyable since all of them are going ns very very soon. botak united.
i have been working, driving and watching movies. Talking abt movies; narnia wasnt as great as i thought. first episode was so much nicer i guess. i wanna watch sex and the city and kungfu panda next.

LIYI need to remember this when she is driving:
-learn to horn when there's sudden obstruction and not make noise
-be more daring!
-check blind spot whenever she make a left turn
-change to gear 4! dont be lazy

i want to own a gucci wallet! or else a burberry. nice eh=X

ntu please accept my appeal man! i beg you! =(

2008-05-17T12:30:00.002+08:00

yesterday i took mc due to gastric flu, vomit and diahorrea. no matter what i drink or eat, i will just come out after 5 min. my sis gave me the med she had for gastric flu which make me feel much better but still my adbomen still hurts. cant even sit straight. have been sleeping yesterday, from 12nn to 9pm, 11pm to 11am. im such a pig.LOL

The FALL

2008-05-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

yesterday is my off day. so i slept till late then i went to np to collect my graduation gown and at the same time endorse my last sem result. went to serangoon central to packet noodle home. so when im walking toward my bus. I FELL. YES I SLIP AND FELL.FELL ON MY ELBOW AND KNEE. AND EVERYONE SAW AND THEY GO WAHHHHHHHHHH......im too embrassed that i keep my head down. dont know to cry or what even though it really hurts like shit. my noodle spill on the floor and onto my right wrist. so now my wrist have BUBBLES. freaking painful and FUGLY. i didnt bleed alot but the muscle on my right arm hurts, dont know why also.=(

look at the bubble. haha it look like a leech can. LOL

purpose

2008-04-30T15:38:00.004+08:00

its my off day but i chose to go work,
lost the meaning of going out with them
nobody listen,talk or cares.

=)

2008-04-23T22:53:00.003+08:00

I'm using the desktop and i went thru the photos in my sister's folder and i came across a photo of my mom and dad holding hands. sweet and it make me tears. dont know why. i love seeing old couples holding hands, maybe thats what love can do? true love. =)

dad and mom, if im not wrong dad and sis brought mom for medical check up at gleneagles. happy and worry thats what i felt.

i cant wait for SE pay to come so my bank will be filled with more money! collected my ck pay so i managed to pay my phone bill;110.75 for 2 months. i must continue to left my bill maintain at 30bucks. lower my expenses BUT STILL I WANNA BUY CLOTHES EH =x fara, rmb that blue top i like at pull and bear? hahaahah i wanna get a shoe to wear for driving

talking abt driving. i make improvement okay, i didnt stall as much. anyway, i went swimming in the afternoon then head to saloon to cut my hair and now, i hate my hair=( and and my instructor allow me to book my TP alr! heh but i think i'll fail for my first attempt. but nvm! i will fa fen tu qiang!

i wanna date fara and sp out on next next sat! =)

outdated photos

2008-04-16T23:20:00.005+08:00

" dont take photo of me!"
"dont take my fat arms eh"
mellie and leow
FAT face

i'll post photo of escape outing when eileen send the photo to me =)

eventually

2008-04-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

yesterday i was waiting for my bus home and i saw mingqi driving past. called him and he say lets go chill. haha its been months, can say more than 4 months? that i meet him. end up we went gardens for icecream and then head home. =) im proud of him, his band gt into superband competition and his lead singer is a indian? or singh? who can sing chinese. oh my! double WOAH.. haha axis the best! =D

i love my colleagues. they are so nice, that crazy ong chong ming. ee lin who is pretty and cool. ru ting who is bubbly. most of the full timer are super helpful especially patsy. =) technician also quite helpful except kok wah. full of vulgarities.it's a must have in very sentences. even when he sneeze, he will say," cibai" sheesh. then patsy told me to be more careful of one of the technician. actually i also realized he is quite touchy, he touch my hand whenever i pass him the phone. like touch not just to grab the phone. heard he will touch ppl's butt also.arsehole. haha.. all in all, i still quite like this job. the boss here are cute, 3 of them,fat and have big tummy. HAHAHA..

sometimes i think i expect too much from myself.ha.

sometimes i feel that there's no point to shares my problems because sharing with someone doesnt mean it will be solved. because others dont know abt it. if share with all? ppl feel that i need attention or i seek for pity. haha perhaps i think too much.

slowly and eventually, i'll throw it away. but not now...

outta of it

2008-04-09T21:11:00.003+08:00

its becoming more and more obvious.. oh well.
new job at sony ericsson, so far so good. love the ppl there. except some arsehole. lols
i want to earn more money so that i can take more driving lesson. all because i sucks in driving. i can turn properly and so on just that i still stall sometime AND im alrdy at 5th lesson. i feel s0 disappointed.

AND AND money keep going out of my bank and none coming in. CK pay not here yet, camp pay also. even with those,i doubt i can survive. food ard working place are ex and dont even mention abt the transport fees as adult. i've spent like 90bucks for 3weeks and 3 days , on transport alone. im not trying to starve myself, but i only had a meal a day because of the cost and one 1hr break for each shift. if i dont work and save, i wont have money. ADD OIL!

anyway, i spend my saturaday with eileen, daniel and chin khai to escape ( love the viking) and then shop for grocery for our steamboat. super healthy, all vegs. lols. surprisingly, still very filling. le grand chef wasnt that bad. that korean actor quite good looking. =)

mom's condition is bad to normal. report not out yet. she went for another blood test on monday.
oh yesterday theres one uncle. damn idiotic! he keep saying he know how to use speed dial. can store until 20+ for speed dial. told him that it can only store till 9 for speed dial. he say okay. then he keep saying once he off his phone. it will hang at the SE logo. it didnt hang la.. just lag. explain to him till i want to vomit blood. nvm. then i taught him to select normal mode and not flight mode. then he say okay. few hours later, he came back and complain that i spoil his phone! he say," that girl la, dont know what she press, now my phone spoil!".bloody arsehole. now he blame me. he anyhow press so now its my fault. make me boil alittle so i talk loudly to him " UNCLE, I ONLY TAUGHT YOU TO SELECT NORMAL MODE INSTEAD OF FLIGHT MODE. I DIDNT ANYHOW PRESS YOUR PHONE OKAY!" the uncle talk so loud also. then we all have to talk loudly to him. stupid uncle.damn you. =X

i wanna buy itouch, go langkawi,bangkok and so on =(
but no $$$$

NTU, FASTER SEND ME THE LETTER LEI. PLS

relapse

2008-04-01T09:03:00.002+08:00

mom had a relapse. sort of. The last time she fainted and bleed badly ard may 2007.
This time round was during her sleep. last night i went to sleep with them and ard 5 am, dad shout for me to wake up. mom was breathing so loudly, saliva keep coming out of her mouth with blood and her pillow had blood stains too. Her eyes look weak and her lips was dark red like almost black. she couldnt hear what we say i guess. mom like couldnt move herself either.=( i ask her to open her mouth and drink water? she didnt react.it lasted for 15 mins and she couldnt remember what happen. why is this happening? even the doc dont know. fucking stupid doctors! i dont wanna lose my mom okay. i want her to be healthy... damn.

work

2008-03-21T23:54:00.004+08:00

its the fourth day of work. so far still good. quite relax because all i do is fold clothes,sms customer from S-Z abt the sales and serve some customer. colleague are super nice and funny.

i have been watching movie lately, be it online or in the theatre.

Sky of love isnt as good as i thought. Its draggy but still abit sad here and there. im a sucker for sad movie. i cried. lols. but HIRO is damn cute la. he looks cute in both white or black hair. =D

cute! =D

oh the song also super nice. heavenly days, does anyone has it? can send to me? thanks!

one less tooth

2008-03-15T18:57:00.008+08:00

Finally i went to extract my HUGE molar tooth. Wasted 500bucks on root canal all because of the inflammation of my gum. The swelling, oh worse thing is the pus. Big and disgusting as if i have gum disease. The only solution to stop the swelling is to remove the root-canaled tooth.
I've concluded that today, there's alot of blood loss.

look at the huge hole on the top left. i know its abit sick but interesting okay. and mellie warned me not to breed mosquito in there. LOL!

went suntec and marina square to do abit of shopping. Bought water bottle and a pair of black shoe. all for my work. finally i can stop rotting at home and go out almost everyday.

im starting to worry abt the amount of money left in my bank. money come money come.LOL

Didnt expect ws to msg me. I think after what i've asked him, he worry that i wont want to be his friend anymore so he msg me, hoping that he didnt give me the wrong impression and if we are still friend?

yea of course! i'm not that childish because sometimes its better to be friends than nth right?=) i dont know if you read my blog, no worries alright.

No more

2008-03-11T12:20:00.003+08:00

its a kind relief when i asked him.
just like i had lighten the burden on my shoulder
i feel happy for him but sad for myself.
one word; stupidity

some sort, i feel that im drifting away.

melissa and malcolm =)

Bored

2008-03-10T15:10:00.001+08:00

i think this guy is so cool =)

Take a leap of faith

2008-03-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

if you are not long,i will wait for you all my life
-Wilde, Oscar

I have the intention to ask him if it is possible
but i really cant seem to pluck out the courage. no guts.

Perhaps i should really dump the letter away and stop all my nonsense.

Maybe i should dump it away 3 years back.

so dumb.

anyway,I'm back from Changkat Pri 5 leadership camp.

Being ROASTED and my voice is so SEXY.

Its good experience but the kids are worse than the those i took when im still in secondary school. Those N4 cluster pri 5 students. oh oh jenny's group(grp2) have a boy name koien?(something like that) he look like a boy in maris stella high from my N4 cluster camp group. so cute.

nowadays, kids are so horrible. The boys complain more than the girls? what is this.omg.

Over small matters, the boy want to fight with each other. For my group, my boys want to fight like? eh maybe 5 times within 2days? some boy they complain but they dont put in any effort?

kids being kids i guess. sheesh.

My group=D

Leap year

2008-03-02T15:24:00.006+08:00

updates;

I have been busy shopping with gfs for prom stuffs

then prom night to phuture. hell lots of fun dancing with so many girls especially jean!

my foot hurts like shit for 2 days all because of the 3 inch heels.imagine dancing for hours in 3 inch. maybe you can but i cant. sheesh.. but it still fun and memorable.=D

hunting for jobs was tough. perhaps im too picky.

so i end up rotting at home most of the time. keep myself infront of lappy with coffee prince.

by now, i had completed the whole series. sweet i must say.

bought and delivered chocolate from chocolateart for AWS. leap year baby=) luckily i still remember how his house look like and his mom. His mom is still so nice.

I just started my driving lesson. oh its so exciting. but damn scary too. i must be more brave like kaili! talking abt kaili, i went to dirty her bed in hall on thurs! hahaa although they have work, i just lie on her bed and read mag. i still feel happy. rather than staying at home alone. i hate staying at home. can die.

OH SO HAPPY=D

2008-02-20T11:56:00.005+08:00

I'm so happy yesterday!

keep smiling and thinking of that someone.hee x)

3 years, its been 3 year that i last saw him.

the letter that i kept for 3 years in my wallet.
that guy who was born on 29 feb, leap year's baby.

CUTE.

even seeing him for that 5 sec, it still can make me smile throughout the day, even till now.

my heart still beat faster when i saw him

i wanna chase him... but its impossible. heeee

going insane!! hahahaa

Brand new

2008-02-15T19:56:00.004+08:00

wooohoooo~

acer gave me a brand new lappy because they dont have stock for the parts they wanna change for my old lappy. so cool la. now my new lappy is bigger and it has an in-built webcam (although i already have a portable webcam, wasted) anyone want to buy from me? i'll sell it at reasonable price! heh =)

i didnt know that vista itself has microsoft office so i went to buy microsoft office 2007. waste money again. so dumb. so anyone want to buy from me? its quite cheap, 12bucks only.

tmr im going down to samsung to get my phone repair or change to a brand new phone. thats what my sis say? she say i could change to a new phone. please give me a new phone!

i also open an account in uob and i cant wait to get my mini debit card. not forgetting i've my pdl which means i can start my practical real soon since i have some money now. driving here i come~

anyway, sis passed her driving test! hopefully she can drive then we can go shopping together. how nice..

i cant wait to find a job! need money to support my driving lesson.

Seriously i need to exercise because im growing fatter! sheesh =(

my adorable siblings

For the past few years, i havent been gambling during chinese new year but this year i did. AND I LOST LIKE 150BUCKS. heartache plus a big hole in my small pocket. lols.

The leaps year

2008-02-06T23:29:00.001+08:00

Based on a novella by acclaimed writer Catherine Lim, the story is about Li-Ann, a young Singaporean girl who meets her 'special someone' on 29 February. She decides to base her intuition on an Irish leap year tradition that no man will refuse any request of a lady and invites him out for a date. Together, they embark on a romantic journey that spans over 12 years, meeting only thrice in 12 years, on the leap year.

I want to watch this!

*The first day i saw you was 28th feb 2005, near midnight =D

not meant to be

2008-02-04T22:42:00.001+08:00

not matter how hard you try,
you wont get what you want..
perhaps its just not meant to be yours?

recently, my U700 went bonkers. nevermind, even my lappy went crazy recently. now its okay. then my calculator cant even on? its like what the? jinx. electronic madness!

sometime you lift me up, then you drop me down. perhaps its not meant to be.. but still... =(

Entering the 2.

2008-01-29T23:14:00.000+08:00

hmmmm, dont you ppl feel old?
seriously, i do. lols

a few more years down the road, we will be working and perhaps marriage comes in. LOL.
OLD SHIT!

im happy that attachment is ending in 2 days? my classmates will be coming back=)
prom night coming too. no more sch for me, for the moment. im still deciding which course to go to for Uni. any advise?

reports done, ppt slides done. waiting for 5th feb then HOHOHOHO! no more sch~
any part-time job to introduce to me?

Beautiful Soul

2008-01-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

I don't want another pretty face

I don't want just anyone to hold

I don't want my love to go to waste

I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you're something special

To you i'd be always faithful

I want to be what you always needed

Then i hope you'll will see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

You're the one i wanna chase

You're the one i wanna hold
I won't let another minute go to waste

You might need time to think it over

But i'm just fine moving forward

I'll ease your mind

If you give me the chance

I will never make you cry c'mon lets try

Am i crazy for wanting you

Baby do you think you could want me too

I don't wanna waste your time

Do you see things the way i do

I just wanna know if you feel it too

There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL,YEAH

new year resolution

2008-01-14T18:19:00.000+08:00

its so late but nevermind!

mellie help me thought of my new year resolution which i think liyi sure cannot achieve
1. speak slowly
2. be more gentle
3. no vulgarities
4. train my abs

busy with final reports. almost died. =(

just found out that " i love happy daze" had closed down. so sad. i wonder why.

anyway, count down to end of attachment! 3 more weeks and i'll be free~
even now i dont have any mood to step into the lab to do any experiment. lazy arse!

im growing fatter, fat face, big tummy and huge arms! needa slim down! abs first!

BRUISED

2008-01-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

for the sake of my sick baby x) i'll blog. ahahaha
dont ask me who's my baby. LOL

i have been damn busy with reports and reports and still reports. then work. im getting sick of it and i want to grad asap! ROAR~~ one more month!

anyway, prasetyo ( my part-time bf) came back from US! still so cute. hahaha we went to O bar and restaurant to chill=) come back soon okay!

praz and i!

again~

HOHOHO my bruise on hip! due to work!

PHOTOS ON EILEEN'S 19TH BIRTHDAY!

2007-12-30T22:49:00.000+08:00

leow and meow
Ben and Dan
those who went kbox
the happy girl
oh i look so sad? born with it. lols
my girlfriend! dan is singing! oh my!dan and his stunt. i look like im gonna eat the mic.lemon craze! poor chew!
me and her madness weeky and leow
at kbox!dennis
wee keat
troubled by what to eat
same goes to heroh my! my favourite stunt!
chew?
dan's delight
birthday girl's
smellie
weeky
dennis
beef kaminabe. sound like knnb
chew
mine
chin kai
couple<3mellie and leow
the guys
us but where's kai! why we stand so far apart?
weekeat
the leowben chew
dennis
kai!
justin
belle
her cake! so cute right
birthday girl
the few flowers on the cake

not yet ready
nice change of face

thats all everyone =)

Bleeding Love

2007-12-30T22:03:00.000+08:00

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rest that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

i love this song =)

celebrated eileen's birthday on sat. so HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!
we went kbox in the afternoon then waraku for dinner. then i went home after cutting the cakes. wasnt in the mood because im angry with my mom.

she doesnt want to sponsor me to do root canal for my poor tooth. the rather her daughter go toothless and have difficulties eating. what a nice mom i have huh.just like when im sick, she wont encourage me to visit the doctor. we arent that poor right?dont know what she's thinking. sheesh!

today went to dye my hair and i didnt like the color. i find it abit too light? then went amk hub with sis to buy melissa and malcolm christmas present. dinner then home now.

photo will come soon!

little quote from kai =)

2007-12-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible, and how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you, and it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends...

you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood, and how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door.

And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new, and you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again, and little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

true enough =)

some photos

2007-12-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

at sushi tei =)
christmas present! a set of storybook, bag and slipper. lolsedna, nikki and i! their virgin trip to zouk or clubs..

Once more

2007-12-25T18:01:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS DAY

merry christmas everyone!
anyway, my blog look dead. i wonder if anyone reads my entry tho.

yesterday was fun, sad and crazy.
i had fun with my family for the dinner and ktv. had martell.
then it was happy day with sec sch classmate. maccallen thats why we had. then stupid beer drinking competition. see who can finish the small bottle of heneiken in the shortest time. i didnt win of course but it sucks. make me feel like shit. i hate beer. then was quite drank.then eileen and daniel, carry and walk me home. home safely but things happen at home. so stupid and throw face.LOL

it gonna be busy in jan i guess. attachment, work and reports. submission of draft final report is on 14 jan. so soon...=( then i didnt manage to quit that ice cream job. the person say dont quit, just work afew more week then say? dont know what to say...

tooth ache. i need to visit the dentist! and i also need to go for injection because of my work. lazy lazy lazy

FUCKING JINXED

2007-12-09T19:49:00.000+08:00

FIRST
paid got deducted due to mc. okay Mc is not paid leave, different from what our supervisor say!

SECOND
lost my wallet. nevermind. my IC and cards not inside
BUT MY SIS IC IS INSIDE FUCK LA.

LOST MY OWN STUFFS. NEVERMIND BUT HER IC
I SHOULD FUCKING GO AND DIE NOW.

FUCK FUCK FUCK

HOW CAN I LOSE SUCH A BIG WALLET. ARGH!

blind faith

2007-12-05T20:19:00.000+08:00

we always tell ppl around; have faith in yourself.
do you all realize, we can advise ppl what to do but when it comes to ourselves being in the similar situation. we got lost, clueless about what to do. funny isnt it? ha

anyway, i bought a book " a place called here", quite interesting. its about things getting lost. i want to buy "PS i love you" even tho i read it like im in sec3.

pay's coming in! they say it will be in by 7th dec. how nice. nearly a month delay for our pay. nice one. thumbs up!

met him at the traffic light yesterday. he asked," end work early today?" i replied," ya". thats the end of conversation. i always hope to see him ard, but when i met him. i feel so sad. dont know why. its so messed up in here. =(

tonsil swell again?! sheesh.

2007-12-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

why do i feel down so often?

fate

2007-12-02T11:43:00.000+08:00

we believe that we deserve what we want. therefore we will earn what we want.
but sometime it's all fated. thats if you believe that fate actually exist..

what happen between my friend and his gf/ex make me realize some points. i find that its unfair. she can behave this way yet he cant. what is this?! he have to tolerate what she do and when he do the same, she cant accept it and got pissed off. sheesh.. r/s.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

put yourself in his/her shoes then you will understand whats going on. dont be ignorant.

importance

2007-12-01T15:06:00.000+08:00

recently someone just smack me right in my face and knock some sense into me.

"you are not important to him what"

just one sentence. yeah,where do i stand in his heart or probably life? no where.

im just a passerby. always.

hows life?

its the first day of december and where's my pay? no where to be seen. =(

the funny thing is that 2 of us received their pay and 2 of us didnt. how come?

worse thing is we couldnt contact the HR lady. sheesh

anyway, work is fine. project and experiments were good. i love my supervisor( yuansy). not that kok leong. we talk abt donuts and now there's another one call toad? haha

dad's birthday, we went jumbo seafood at gardens for dinner. this year, the food was bad and serving were small! didnt even fill one quarter of my tummy can. lols. went pub with family after that. it have been so long that i touch alcohol plus mom gave permission to drink. had heniken, brandy and johnny walker. we all had fun with singing and dices. =)

my family

met up with mellie and leow on fri. chat and dinner. i love the company and i think we shld go out more often. im lack of love from girlfriends. i envy other girls who can always go out with their girlfriend. i dont get to do that...

my health; i can say i did recover from tonsillitis BUT its flu everyday, every hour, minutes and seconds.lols.
the emptiness in me...
Happy birthday mellie! <3

SEX

2007-11-25T15:13:00.000+08:00

mature content
lols

guys will care about who his girl first have sex with or he is the last one she have sex with?

opinion please.
my friend told me that guy will care more about he being the last one she have sex with. after him, is still him. somehow being faithful? yeah something like that.

its another boring sunday. gotta work later on. my palm are getting rough. it looks like ive been doing pull up that kind of palm.

Pay havent roll in! =(

i want to use it on so many things:
prom night ($68 x 2)
jeans
hp bill ($100)
contact lens (ard $100)
and all these already cost so much. die la.. =(

mom agree to let my take my posb account money to open a uob account! horray~ but she say only, doesnt mean she will do. i dont know how long i'll have to wait

dad's birthday on thurs! plan is to go jumbo at serangoon garden country club. again?! lols but its nice! dont know what to buy for him. maybe save my money for myself=X

received daniel's present for me! so cute. =)

alright, in 2 months time, it will mark the end of attachment! yay!!! then i can get to see my classmate like cherchuan, ceyao, zhengchuan, daniel and weychih.. i miss them so much..

i wanna go japan for new year! pray hard mom will decide to go there! PRAY*

something from the past

2007-11-19T23:06:00.001+08:00

i just came back from my hougang house and i grab something back.

something filled with memories and SWEAT. lols

trophies from primary school till secondary and one from poly. im suppose to do my weekly report but im just too lazy. my throat is swollen and its giving me problem. pain! can i just cut it off? then i can eat all the chocolates i love? AH!

discussion

2007-11-17T15:16:00.000+08:00

Recently dennis pop out a question:
is it true that all girls prefer bad guys?

what kind of bad guys? it doesnt have to be ah bengs. dennis keep saying girls love ah bengs. its so not true. bad in a sense that they know when its time to play or be cheeky or joke along. who will like a guy who is boring, quiet and doesnt seems to enjoy or have fun? no one right?

then another question to think about:
shld girls let their bf pay for everything or keep asking the bf to buy stuffs for them as if its a thing that bf shld do?

to me, its BIG NONO. he's just my bf, not husband or what. so he shldnt pay for me and the problem is he dont earn his own money. his money= his parent's money. therefore, its so not right to let or ask your bf to buy stuffs for you. you want it, you get it yourself.

our pay havent roollll in yet. im so disappointed. tho i could use that money to buy contact lens and so on. im bored now. i shall list out what i WANT.
levis jean
levis red spec
wallet
grey skinny jeans
num T-shirt
charles and keith heels

why suddenly i cant think of more? old already. sheesh
nevermind..

im so excited that im going have prom night! its at grand corpthone waterfront hotel! wooohooo..the ballroom is damn damn gorgeous! now i have to save up for oversea trips and prom. =) happy like a bird~ hee

yesterday's attempt to suntan was a failure. not much sun and it even drizzle alittle. but still i got abit burn with my cheek being red.

photos

tee wee!weychih's cute girl - yongren!

yongren and me

after sentosa, we went chomp with lynette and yet wei. totals of 6 ppl. then teewee left us where we head to ice cube!=) i think they love the dessert over there. i have a photo of the dessert similar to what we had.

double scoop icecream with double shots of liquor.

after dessert, yongren left us and we went coffeebean to gossip and chat. =) then it was home we went after that.

boring~

man's EGO

2007-11-15T00:26:00.000+08:00

i seriously think man have too much ego.
just like yesterday i went jogging, then i jog past a teenager. i jog faster than him you see. after awhile, he speed or can say sprint ahead and stop like 200m ahead?
i can see that he is pretty tired or wear off. but why he have to do?
EGO!

went swimming with mellie. we did quite alot of catching up. pretty interesting and i totally love it. =) we had aston express. i love my lemon lime chicken! then we had haato for dessert. like again? yea! just love it.

hows work? i think im so afraid of making mistake that i become so dumb, clumsy, blur and totally no common sense. end up having bad impression i guess. always got scolded or comment that i have no common sense. quite hurting tho. but no choice right. perhaps im really like that. dumb and hopeless. hee=X

wooohooo.. tmr is my payday! gonna open a uob account! like finally. should i buy psp slim? tempting tho. shld i?

anyway, i dont have to go for work today (thurs) and tmr because of company retreat. whole company retreating to where? pulau ubin. interesting! lols

who knew what will happen?
keep a look out for you? shld i?

come and go

2007-11-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

people come and go
money too. because i spent 100 or over 100 today. just on 3 things: bra, concealer and cakes.
sheesh.. yet i want to buy so many other things! jeans, skirt, tops,shoe and bag! oh no.. im gonna be so broke.=(

who wanna sponsor me?

better off this way

2007-11-11T03:06:00.001+08:00

sometime we just have to let nature take its course.no point hurrying, worrying and panicking.but still we will think abt it. eventually it will just "pop" out or came across your mind. just like its haunting you. hmm.. i just want to get my shoe back. my friend say if he's an arse. then just fuck it. pretty true. just buy another new pair of shoe. =)

i need retail therapy! who wanna go shopping with me? please msg me=)

i have been sleeping late everyday. yes EVERYDAY. im pretty ugly now. eyes bag, dark eye ring, pimples anything you can think of. oh and im fatter now. i can feel that my face is even fatter. sheesh i need to exercise or eat less. from now,(11/11/07) i need to cut down on what i eat. no more supper!

i have been busy with work lately. interim report that need to hit minimum of 40 pages long. going work is boring, going home from work is even worse. it makes me lose the appetite for dinner. sat and sun? work! haato~ chilling out with sec sch classmate is a routine for fri and sat. but after today, i feel that because i wanna go out. then everyone like so tired but still they came out. i feel so bad cause im like the one who keep wanting to go out late. sorry friend. next time i wont initiate=) anyway, i still love you all!

metrosexual are cool shit! =)

birthday

2007-10-28T17:00:00.000+08:00

im stuck at home on this day. its so not happening and reason being? its a sunday i guess. no life. anyway, secondary schmate celebrated my birthday on fri night. we drove to east coast and picnic. pretty interesting and fun. the satay, light sticks, coconuts, roti john and not forgetting my 2 cheesecake. love you ppl (eileen, daniel, wee keat,dennis and ben chew) also those who couldnt make it because they are stuck in camp. after that, daniel, weekeat, benjamin and i went "i love happy daze" for drink and cardgames. pretty fun. the peach beer is tasty!

on saturday, we went for hp pouch hunt, watch stardust and dinner at MFM(mahanttan fish market). mos is where me and teewee went. The rest of them didnt feel well or they feel out of place so couldnt join in. luckily teewee's friends are pretty friendly. pretty girls eh.LOL. so we drink and drink. sad to say ppl gt drunk and started puking. i didnt even step into the dancefloor so quite disappointed but its okay. next time!

work

2007-10-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

1. attachment- consider as work
2. haato icecream parlour
3. purple sage

oh yeah! liyi has gone back to her work nonstop schedule. the old time when im working at al dente and maestro bistro. no life. all i do is work. the outcome? money to spend... not bad afterall.

anyway, i still manage to chill out on fri and sat night with sec sch friend. for the past 2 week, we went drinking at i love happy daze in gardens. spend like 200bucks? now only waiting for ppl to return back. =) but its okay la. once in a while still okay.

anyway, my project change from yeast to hydrogel. pretty interesting where i deal with chemicals and bacteria. should be so much better than the unwelcomed yeast.

aunt bought me samsung U700 for my advance birthday present, its already 1 week and 2 days old. i love it so much. it looks pretty stylist tho.

about my health, the tonsil swell and de-swell and swell again. it keeps coming back. can i cut off my tonsil for godness sake. its so damn irritating la. swell means might have fever. damn stupid. i didnt even know i didnt bring my medicine home on friday. so i didnt manage to finish my antibiotics. wah lao. sian.

sometime liyi is so clumsy, foolish, stupid, wild and crazy.
not forgetting dumb and blinded.

why bother when G dont even bother? right?
sheesh!

soulmate - natasha bedingfield

2007-10-18T22:15:00.000+08:00

Incompatible, it don't matter though'
cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone

hows liyi doing?
pretty fine i guess. im recovering again. the throat felt terrible on tuesday so i left work at 10plus and head down to hougang for doc visit. my first time going clinic by my own. so old already but still first time.38bucks spent. for this one month, i spend like 162 on medicine and doc visit. waste money man. lols. i went jogging last night with bro and then chomp for dinner. today i went swimming alone. i dont feel tired even after 24 laps. just feel so bored to carry on swimming so i stopped. just nice parent called and ask about dinner. went to prata shop for dinner then i bought rum and raisin as my dessert. NICE I LOVE IT. having it makes me smile.

about work, will be changing to another project because YEAST isnt welcome in our labs. ppl dont like my yeast. damn sad la. for the past one month plus i have been learning and working on yeast. now? need to change! like effort waste although i learn something but still damn sian.

i'll be working tmr for purple sage. its been more than 6 month that i help out. all because i dont dare to go back. why? spencer's incident with the company. i'll be working at taka, most prob for some event. then sat and sun will be icecream digger.

i cant keep my mind off you...
im trying to..

random

2007-10-13T13:28:00.000+08:00

i think my blog is pretty dead.

anyway, i went to watch resident evil extinction. its not that bad i guess. i sneaked out of house at 1plus for 2.15am show and no one know. cool shit. oh and i watch it with winchester.

tonsillitis is back. damnit. i went to surf net on tonsillitis. only when the tonsil swell until it blocks the airway then ppl will go ahead and remove the tonsil which is called tonsillectomy. its cause by bacteria or virus infection and its can be pass on through saliva. so DO NOT SHARE DRINK WITH ME.

im starting to be busy during attachment. all because my supervisor is so free now as he had completed his financing course? think so. basically he just tell me what to do and i will carry out by myself. he didnt even demonstrate for me. he think that im so smart. im pretty clumsy tho. i have a bruise on my hip and a cut on my index finger. i dont even know how i get the injuries.

boring shit. shld i shut down my blog. im too lazy to blog

sillyness

2007-10-07T23:42:00.000+08:00

come to think of it. sometime im really silly or blinded. i need some slap in the face to wake up from those nonsense.

when there was me and you

It's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside.
I'm standing here but all I want is to be over there.
Why did I let myself believe miracles could happen.
'Cause now I have to pretend that I don't really care.

I thought you were my fairytale, a dream when I'm not sleeping.
A wish upon a star that's coming true.
But everybody else could tell, that I confused my feelings with the truth.
When there was me and you.

I swore I knew the melody that I heard you singing.
And when you smiled you made me feel like I could sing along.
But then you went and changed the words.
Now my heart is empty.
I'm only left with used-to-be's and once upon a song.

Now I know you're not a fairytale and dreams were meant for sleeping.
And wishes on a star just don't come true.
cause now even I can tell that I confused my feelings with the truth.
Because I liked the view, when there was me and you.

I can't believe that I could be so blind.
It's like you were floating while I was falling and I didn't mind.
Because I liked the view, oohhh, oohhh.
I thought you felt it too.
When there was me and you.

=(

weak arse

2007-10-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went to see doc. having fever at 39.7deg then he gave me medicine and so on. the medicine dont seems to cure the pain from my throat. i couldnt sleep throughout the night and i vomitted on the floor beside my bath and floor of the toilet. more vomiting. i didnt eat much so what came out is some yellowish water. the fever keep going up and down then up again. but its always ard 39. something

today it got worst. even my neck swell.so i went to my family clinic. doc say im suffering from tonsillitis which is the inflammation of tonsil. quite serious. so he gave me medicine first, if i do not recover in 3 days, i need to go for operation. fever at 39deg.

mom keep forcing me to eat but i couldnt. its too painful. so since saturday, i didnt eat much. not even a full bowl of porridge and i dont feel hungry.

shld i work on weekend? or shld i use weekend to rest?

again

2007-09-29T13:32:00.000+08:00

im feeling it.
i think im going to fall sick again. my whole body aching and there's terrible sore throat. even swollening saliva hurts

emo always come to me everyday? especially every weekend.
hopefully my new job will keep me busy from those silly thoughts.
=)

itchyness

2007-09-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

i think my bed is dirty
ewwww
i had 15 bites on my right arms.
its BIG and SWOLLEN now.

phglem is a nuisance. ever since i fell sick last monday, its there. i havent recover yet.lousy health. i had 3 bad night within a week. first is fever, second is tummy ache until i cry and i pinch myself in order to do some pain transfer. third is the stupid insect or dont know what bite? i think i know why i had terrible tummy ache. all because im so lazy to drink water with my antibiotics, i had it with milk. there comes the aches at 1am. the pain is so terrible that i pinch my leg so that it wont be that painful. i cried and feel so helpless cause everyone is asleep except me.=(

my supervisor is a pain in the arse i think. he keep abandoning me. ask me to find protocol on my own. my friend they dont even have to find. they have their supervisor to tell them what to do and give them the protocol. so nice. why he's like that.? i think he hates me. everyone ask me to pester him for information. i did. i did sms and call him. why do i have to do this? why others no need? its so unfair la. maybe im just frigging down with luck. sian la. its a month and i only see him less than ten times. maybe only 5 times. ha.

got a job at haato at liang court. hope it will be fun althought the pay is low and short working hours. meaning i wont be earning much. abit sian but see how it goes? thinking of my weekend will be gone, hai. but if i dont work? where to get the extra money to go out? thats the problem.

i want a U700 phone and ipod classic/ video.
gonna rob mom to buy them for me x)
i wish! lols

i miss everyone
my classmate =(

sick

2007-09-17T19:45:00.000+08:00

falling sick again
im having fever at 39.6 deg C. i didnt expect it to be so high.
the hours spent at the clinic waiting for my turn is so horrible.
it make me feel that every veins and arteries of my brain is going to explode. then there goes liyi.
even a little bit of wind bites my skins.
i can feel the heart beat through the arteries of my brain. like how?
my head will bounce or vibrate back and fro according to the heart beat.
touching my own hair will also cause me pain.
anyway,doctor gave me a 2 day mc because he dont think i'll recover by tmr. but im gonna go work because im going to have lab tmr! like finally huh? if i go work and there no lab i might want to go home earlier.

my everything

2007-09-15T17:02:00.000+08:00

everything seems to move away.
away from me
i feel down almost everyday
im not despo
i just need the company i used to have; my friends
im not used to it
still not
but what can i do?
nothing right?
life is messed up
its messed up in my own hand
come to think of it
im someone foolish

=(

why every song seems so sad
why i cry
fuck

abandoned

2007-09-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

im a abandoned kid
abandon by my supervisor and so on(maybe friend too)
he cheat my feeling. he told me that we will be having lab on thursday and i msg him on thursday but he didnt reply. so friday i called him. he say we will be having lab on tuesday because monday he will be on leave and if we do it today(fri) it will be troublesome because we will have to come back and take the yeast.

life is boring.
everyone seems to be leaving.

when will liyi's mom give her money to shop?!
wait for long.

shit happen

2007-09-08T17:26:00.000+08:00

sometime shit really happen.

imagine everyone around know something except you.
how will you feel?
nothing different from a idiot.

HOWS MY ATTACHMENT AT DSO?

oh.. i must say its fun. i love science. too bad i couldnt start on my experiment because the damn laminar flow hood is faulty. oh oh the interesting part is my lab area revolves in the laminar flow hood in a lab where they cut human or maybe the limbs and so on. my supervisor is pretty nice eh. but he resemble CONRAD alot. the way he talk, slang and his physical appearance.im feeling pretty lazy to type the weekly report! people there are nice, i like yongren's supervisor. liyi lacks of sleep. i always wake up late for attachment but luckily i manage to rush there in time.

i dont want to shop online anymore! the clothes i receive is like EEEE. my money going down the drain. lols

i think my entry is getting boring

airport adventure

2007-09-02T10:51:00.000+08:00

i have been to the airport like thrice in a week. from T1 to T2 and even budget terminal.
thursday- ceyao,zheng chuan and weychih left for frankurt. pretty sad.yongren, lynette, me and some other teared as they bid good bye by hugging each other one by one. just couldnt stand it. 5 months.
saturday- cherchuan left for chengdu? i will miss my fat boy. LOL. i even gave him a bite because he said, bite pinch beat and whatever we can. he will allow? something like that. then in the evening, daniel left for shenzheng. this time round there only yetwei, lynette, me, teewee and tzehau to send him off.

now all of them are safe and trying to adapt to their new environment. im here missing them. whenever i say FREAK. i makes me think of ceyao. because he always do that.lols. lots of thing around me revolves around them. 5 month. not very long also not very short tho.

anyway, liyi bought her webcam!

attachment starts tmr.
tuesday i going for interview for haato ice cream.
thursday? ratatouille with yetwei and lynette they all.

misses

2007-08-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

In less than 9hours, my classmate will be flying to Germany for their attachment
ceyao, zheng chuan and wey chih.
In another 3 days, Daniel and Cher chuan will be leaving too.
It’s so sad... I feel as though I won’t be able to see them again. I will but in 5 months time? It’s quite long but I’ll definitely look forward to picking them up at the airport in 5 month time=)
im so going to miss them. quite badly i guess.
We spend so much time in school doing fyp project, having lesson, meals and even outings together. Everyday and every hour are like gold? We went through the toughest time together and of course the happy moment where everyone laughs so hard.
The 2 weeks we all spent at china, there's so much memories and I sort of grew to live my everyday with them inside it. I feel as if some part of my life is taken away from me. As if I won’t be as happy or life won’t be as happening without them. Their the light of my life? hahax)
My polymates are one bunch of friends who know how to have fun and yet we produce good grades? Not friend that will led us astray.
Will things change in the 5 month times?
I hope we won’t.
Ahh im feeling sad.
My love for my polymates man!

Bowling competition today. So what’s the prize? We won the best team award with the highest total score. We cheat abit here and there. My score wasn’t that bad even without cheating. I mean to me its good enough? My score: 109 and 107 but when we edit the score, its around 115. My arms are aching . Oh ya, the prawn noodle at Kim seng plaza is delicious. Love the soup and the huge prawn. Marina square for shoe hunting but it’s a failure. Sun plaza for chuan's air tickets then Mac to chill. Home is where we go after that. Meeting them in less than 8hours time. Gonna wake up at 3.50am but it’s worth it. Sending them off. Hopefully no one cry or else I might cry too. Damnit.

spoilt

2007-08-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

i think my stomach is spoilt
i can dont eat and survive thru the day. without wanting to faint.
saturday, i only had auntie anne
sunday, i had bbq but i didnt eat alot tho
yet i have terrible diarrhoea during the bbq.
today, i had abit of beehoon.no appetite, i will have tummy ache or something wrong with my tummy? no idea.

i dont know why i feel sad. troubled.messed up =(
my phone died on me.
before it died.it was hot till my battery went low and lower then no batt. now it couldnt be turn on. how nice?

part time job part time job
shld i try cafe del mar?

deep down

2007-08-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

whats wrong?
comment, opinion and even criticism.
i take them seriously and to heart.
i have no self-confidence in what i wear.
was criticize badly by ppl.
today?
i love ppl to be truthful.
i ought to change and take note of the comment
but i feel it come too suddenly
crashing my heart, moral and dont know whatever shit.
i just dont feel good. i feel like crying on the spot. what for?
it will be dumb.what will ppl think.
its me. i cant blame anyone. because its about me only.
i feel so ugly.
why am i so lousy?

sometime i feel that im left out.
we seem close but still im left out.
maybe im not even in.

i always tell myself its impossible
but now, i really feel its impossible.

never been so down..

exam are over. whats next?

2007-08-25T12:23:00.000+08:00

=

i slept at 6am in the morning. woke up at 10am.
liyi gt the urge to go for shopping spree.x)
but who's gonna sponsor her?
damnit.
i want to buy new shoe, tees,jeans and bag for attachment.
how how how?

after miit paper.i can offically announce that i do not have to sit for any examination in ngee ann anymore.it was steamboat where we stuffed ourselves with unhealthy yet tasty food.went pub at boat quay.left around 3am? cant remember tho. came home bathe and chat with winchester.

today im going to stay home.transport fee is expensive so staying home will be a good idea. packed my table, threw away stuffs like photos and bags etc. wardrobe will be next then sweep and mop floor.

dont know why i keep shivering.=(

last saturday was dennis birthday. we all meet up at clarke quay mrt then it was hotstones for dinner. i hope they did enjoy the food although it wasnt really that feeling for the guys i guess. i feel so bad because my boss gave us discount plus no service charge and still we have free drink and cake.ah guilty.lots of photo were taken. 2 camera so this entry will be filled with lots and lots of photo.after dinner, we went to watch secret.i quite like the movie, the twist, jay chou and the love story behind.=)

DO I LOOK LIKE A AUNTIE?

please tell me.

shaun the squirrel say so. something to do with my fringe.damnit!

disturbing paragraph

2007-08-23T10:20:00.000+08:00

copied from spencer's blog.ha

i went thru my last break up with much hatred and frustration with the ppl who weren't even in the picture at all. my explanations are suppose to be done by me alone. not by ppl who do not know the entire pic. the one that angers me the most is some ppl, in order to protect its ass, create some story which made me look like the bad guy. and it's cuz of this, my explanations were pushed aside. i spent my days drinking, picked up smoking. and made major mistakes. when these mistakes slapped me in my head, i told myself, enough is enough. stop doing things to show. this ain't the kind of guy that spencer is.

make you look like some bad guy?
you are one.
explanation pushed aside? you gt no guts to tell ppl about it.
so eventually, you blame ppl for drinking smoke and making mistake.
WOAH. how nice.

something meeting his bro in sch give me the urge to tell him about my side of story. all because he didnt dare to tell his mom about it. i feel like screwing things up for him.
thinking about it. what for? maybe he tell his friend how bad i am, thats why yilong gave me that look? and i dont want anything to do with him anymore. dirt. so i shouldnt care right? yes yes..i just feel its not fair. only alvin know whats wrong. nvm, one day she will see his true colour ; his freaking ego and attitude.

=(

MIIT is boring

2007-08-22T13:01:00.000+08:00

non-stop studying is a type of DESTRUCTION to our brain.
my mind is in a state where its going to explode. slowly swell then BOMB!

okay,nonsense again x)

oh ya, liyi sleep with her book and notes okay! im so so hardworking.the night before BI paper, i want myself to sleep. another part of me keep telling myself i need to study. end up, i keep waking up to look at the notes for dont know what? cant even see the words? then sleep again. wake up again. look at the notes again.so dumb la. does stress do this to ppl? hahaha..

i remember that time we tried to study at coffeebean at garden. can say its a fail attempt because girls will chat non-stop and take photos here and there right? yes!

* please dont laugh till you drop and get horrified by my photos

hardworking eh?

eat and study at the same time helps =)

at my house (cook and tv)

THE DISTURBING PHOTO!!

DONT GET SHOCK OR DISGUSTED!

SUGARY DONUTS

my bull boxer!

i think she love the wooden chair

photo at grapevine =)

2007-08-22T00:53:00.001+08:00

grapevine

my girlfriends

daniel and his pervertic face

chin khai

girls being girls

eileen and darren

sexy legs

my love nice portrait
something similar? justin the medic
specs
drunk by smoothies
oh pretty pretty eileen x)

sexy leg 2

mellie, eileen and dennis

daniel got big mouth=X

people in the car

im once fat

now im slimmer, hehee

*more photo to come for dennis' birthday=)

updates

2007-08-22T00:39:00.001+08:00

EXAM
whats over is over
so i shall not brood over it
sheesh

im still surviving and kicking. =)

for entertainment:

Create Your Own PaloozaHead - Visit Lollapalooza.com

vote please

2007-08-16T22:11:00.001+08:00

what should liyi do to her hair

=)

2007-08-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

i love this mtv

when you're gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

love is in the air
but i cant seem to breathe it
cher chuan's philosophy

maybe it do apply to me
will old love ever come back?

love is blind?

2007-08-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

love blind us
the power of love blind us
such that we do think without thinking?
for him, i'll do anything.
thats what we always think when we have a partner.
we want whats best for him or her, no matter what.

people go for the heart because that matter the most.
not the look/appearance.

so what do my sister go for?
company for the moment?
no idea. i cant understand her.
just hope that she know whats right.

counting down, we left 15 days to spend together.
then they will all fly to other countries for attachment
im not looking forward to sending them off =(

should liyi dye her hair black?

GHOSTS ARE HERE!

2007-08-13T11:42:00.000+08:00

Today marks the first day of hungry ghost festival.

at 12am sharp, mom and i starting burning joss stick, lighting candle and then burning the incense paper. dad and sis was sleeping, brother didnt bother to help. so only left me and mom. this year is so weird. why? because everyone will help out. but now never.

no more late night outing for me?

not that my mom say no to late night but i think i shldnt. im a hummer too. dont wanna get freak out if i ever see one. i still remember mingqi saw one near my house.sheesh. goosebump.

AND my complexion is like shit now.=(

so i better sleep more and drink more water.

i need to study advance theory and touch CE.

i've actually planned nicely what to study each day since sat but i didnt keep up to it. liyi is too lazy. i need motivation.

Alone. its chinese title is 联体阴. im not sure if its written this way, but the direct translation is siamese twins? yeah. i like the twist in the story. the scary scene, you know that its coming but still? i was shocked. basket. overall the movie wasnt that scary tho.

nice movie are coming up. there's a scary movie that revolve with dolls. i hate dolls, they make me think of chucky. then movie on war of dark and light side. for example, day watch ? forgot the title of the other movie.

when can i get down to grey vibes at far east to have a look at that dress=(

mellie when are you free?

my pretty mellie and me, i look super chubby.lols

quick and brief

2007-08-12T16:53:00.001+08:00

a short update.
=)
caught rush hour 3. freaking funny.
grapevine has great ambience and cheap drink.
mango smoothie - super tasty
too bad they dont have aircon!
movie marathon at daniel's house.
later im going to watch ALONE
like finally.
YAYNESS

i want to buy this dress!

shut away

2007-08-09T13:28:00.000+08:00

A barrier placed inbetween.

it shall be like this for some time

anyway, i had completed my BI( biomaterial and implant) report.

left with BI lab. i volunteered to do because my grpmate didnt say they want to do and we need to hand up tmr.

yesterday, we are suppose to go sentosa but we didnt. why? keep dragging and waiting. end up watching knocked up at vivo. damn hilarous i must say. imagine liyi laugh till she started shivering. after movie was yoshinoya for dinner. work was fun. good money and easy job. just do survey without any quota. i almost hit 100 survey or else i can get another 25bucks more to my 60bucks. i only had 90 survey,eleven was from weychih where 79 was mine.wasted wasted. but its okay,why? we had free drink and we chose lamborgina which is not cheap. so quite worth the money. after that, we cab home and the taxi driver say," why go home so early? the night is still young" haha.. so i say we go zouk. zouk had super long queue and drunk ppl everywhere. so end up having supper at the prata shop then back home.

on 4th august, dinner at thai express =)mellie and i 3 of uschew and dennisleow and chewdaniel and chewjustin" why you keep taking photo?!""the waiter is damn irritating la""really irritating?!"?!

there's 7 of us: HERE GOES~

1:benjamin chew2: dennis tng3:daniel tan4: justin lim5: eileen leow6: melissa ng7: me! trying hard to act NUAdennis and his crayfish noodlefood?happy 4 year =)mellie and leowdaniel and imellie!the guysthe girlsjustindennis

FACES of mellie

our ugly faces

ugly enough?this is still okaythis is the WORST.

DURIAN FEST

taken long ago =)

diana me and yongren

random

2007-08-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

im slighty tanned from yesterday's swimming session
32laps thats all i swam.
funny incident at the pool
i thought these 2 guys where my secondary sch friend. so i waved and after waving , i realise oh shit! not my friend. i was panicking and so shy. so i turned away. only one of the guy know im waving. he wanted to wave back. luckily he didnt. nevermind. when i swim and i rest at the edge. just nice someone just stop beside me, so i just look over. ah.. that guy. then i turn to mellie and tell her about it. that guy approached me and ask,do i know you? sheesh. right away, i say eh no.. i have mistaken him as my friend..? he say he could see clearly without his spec so dont know if i'm his my friend. lesson learnt, never wave if im not sure. i feel like slapping myself at that point of time. anyway, that guy is cute.

recently my left leg is giving me problem.
it keep cramping. not sure if its okay or there's problem with it.
oh oh.. maybe i'll be working tmr=) yetwei's lobang

today i did a stupid thing again. suppose to press ctrl+a. i went to press ctrl+s. so it prompted me with something i didnt know and i just click. GG. im at the last slide and everything went missing. i cannot recover it nor undo. i was so fed up with myself that tears were in my eyes. how dumb can i be? AH. so end up i redo everything. i started the ppt slide from ard 12pm till 2.30pm, and the effort just went down the drain.=(

came across this lyrics and i quite like it even tho im not in that position

Aviation - You Were My Everything

Once the most important person in my life
I didnt realize it at the time
I cant forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I dont really expect you to eitherIts just...
I dont even know
Just listen

Youre the one that I want the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you I knew it was real
Im sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasnt me let me show you the way
I looked for the sun but its raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didnt want to get hurt
But I didnt know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didnt care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldnt have hurt me like I aint shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights just holding you in my arms
I dont know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
Youre number one always in my heart
And now I cant believe that our love is torn apart

Chorus

I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cause
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you 2x

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as youre holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I cant hold you
Without you everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it Im insane
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it it brings tears to my eyes
Now Im not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly my love is not blind

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cause
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you 2x

Talking
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand but
No matter what youll always be in my heart
Youll always be my baby

Our first day it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off I knew it was real
But now I cant take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart I know Im still there
I dont wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times Remember when we kissed
I didnt think you would ever do me like this
I didnt think youd wanna see me depressed
I thought youd be there for me this I confess

You said you were my best friend was that a lie
Now Im nothing to you youre with another guy
I tried I tried I tried and Im trying
Now on the inside it feels like Im dying

Chorus
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you cause
I wanna hold you
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you 2x

Talking
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now well never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me or without me
I just want you to be happy

lonely

2007-08-07T00:35:00.000+08:00

weychih told me something;
i think because you are lonely thats why you msg ppl.
think about it. yes i feel lonely.
if i stay at home, i'll be alone at home.
how is it like to be at home where the whole damn house is empty.
last time when i dont have bf, i'll work. so that i wont be at home, doing nothing.
i got no games at home, no scv. what else can i do? nothing.
last time i get so bored at home that i cried. yes, im serious. i just cry because im so lonely at home.

so i so want to work now
LOBANG PLEASE!!!!
URGENTLY.

work to kill time.

im having financial crisis seh!

contagious

2007-08-05T13:40:00.000+08:00

emo is contagious.
indeed, it is.

problem solved.
but why am i feeling this.
=(

need to rush to bathe and out of house for the china student activities. they are in sg and we need to bring them around. i need a job. shld i work at attica?

move on

2007-08-04T11:54:00.000+08:00

life still have to move on
no matter what happen

i shldnt even start.
SHIT

kbox with classmate yesterday was great.
seeing teewee laughing like mad make us happy but he scared us when he was shivering and grasping? for air. he couldnt breathe and he was tearing. civil defence ppl came and they say its just hypertension. he just need to relax and breathe slowly. we chose not to go to SGH so we continue to stay at kbox.tee wee gt a free blanket from civil defence as birthday present eh? not bad not bad. then we went home ard 4am.

i think i screw things up for myself.
how how?!
=(

exercise scheme

2007-08-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

guess what?
i met up with mellie at 6.30pm
a last minute plan to jog then swim. we started walking one round then jog where i jog continuously 5 round then walk another 100m followed by running another400m. walk another one round and run another 2 round. can die. not proud to say my stamina drop.
then it was swimming where we swam 16 laps. then my finger went crazy where i cant close it properly. not that exhausted tho. my swim suit became fitting again. last time was abit tight. sheesh. i need to grow taller and put on weight. hougang mall for bubble tea and pancake? from mr bean.thats my dinner. skipped only 220 times when i get home, as in using the skipping rope. i couldnt go on because my tummy hurts as if my intestine going to fly out? hahaha..

most prob i'll go down adidas this week for interview. i so want to work so that i can shop and enjoy chilling session. without worrying about money. =) heard dad say chinese new year we go cruise. i so want to go. maybe i can bring some friend along then we can drink at the pub. yes yes im a acholic.HEE.. i think i know why my arm has muscle even tho i have stopped doing push-up. its because i swim. i use my hand more than my leg when i swim. MY MUSCLE. haha...

im currently craving for longan drink from chomp chomp.

after review

2007-08-01T13:29:00.000+08:00

demonstration

i screwed it up.

how come?

my lappy just died on me when im going to the second part of my demo.how nice. it hang on me and i shut it down immediately then on it again.it give out some loud alarm that disturbed other's demo. how bad can it get?tears are about to come out from my eyes la. im freaking panicking and i feel so frustrated with myself. why am i so unlucky? heard about what the guy say when he present. fuck sia. theres one part make me so angry. i seriously want to beat him. ARGH!

mr chua say i almost got into examiner review. i mean i would want a A but i dont want to go into Examiner Review. im pretty sick of fyp. maybe i just dont deserve it. darn. if he ever get higher grade than me,I CAN JOLLY WELL GO AND DIE MAN.

boardgame at library with classmate was so damn fun la. seeing how we react or call the names of each of our animal was really funny. can laugh till i start shaking. we shall try that again! =) love my classmate but they are leaving so soon... =(

then it was town for kfc and weychih shopping for his shirt.
dont talk to me about shopping.

no school today. so its time for me to rot at home all alone. its always empty and boring. people love to stay home, where as for my case i hate it. today mom ask me to cook something for my own lunch. you know what? she say," cook the bah ku teh in the fridge with maggie".i was thinking.. the bah ku teh is from monday night. so its already 2 nights ago. so overnight la and i seriously dislike overnight food.how unhealthy. why am i so deprived.=(

photos! taken on friday and satdaniel and kai mellie and leoweileen danieljustinkaidennis the officer our ring from kai's trip daniel and his pathetic maggie mee from hk cafe dennis and ijustin, daniel,kai and melliemy GIRLFRIEND =) mellie and eileen," trying to eat the bomeerang?spell like this?" dennis eileenkaimellie's turndaniel and his seducive facehaha.. this is how ugly when we laugh like madgirls being girls

curly hair, we wanteileen love meall of usmellie and leow in the cardaniel the driversend mellie home then movie for the rest justin, me and dennis

OKAY! its the SPASTIC FACE

this is benjamin! taken on sat before liquid kitcheneileen's jay chouchin khai's sock. so cute la

chin khaicouple for 3/4 years? daniel and his pie

thats all. fri im going kbox till morning for teewee's birthday! will be fun =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENJAMIN CHEW!

before its too late

2007-07-30T21:11:00.000+08:00

we should grab any chance we have.
to strive, to achieve what we want.
=)

tmr is review day and hopefully it will be the last day that i'll have to touch codewarrior
im not a debugger king like ceyao. LOL
i seriously think i sucks in programming
i prefer hardware but why am i doing software? sheesh.
for these 5 month, project is in a mess.
hope that iap will be great and so much better.

im left with MIIT assignment to do.
im done with the rest. like horray? haha

leow leow=)

me

dennis

daniel and i

eileen and dennis

melissa

army make them like this. hahaha

cher chuan, birthday boy

daniel and CC

lynette and yetwei

me and CC

bme girls

BME

shiyuen cc and i

shiyuen

ceyao me teewee

zheng chuan and cher chuan.(chuan bro)

CC with his brandy

Cheers!

ceyao and tee wee (team C)

tee wee and his first wife

the girls

some of the guys

gay partner

this is worse!

more picture will come soon =)

anyway, mom went crazy again
she keep thinking that i have boyfriend.
all because i go out late on weekend and ppl drive me home.
meaning i got alot of boyfriend? cause different ppl drive me home.lols
mom is insane=X

chilling session

2007-07-28T19:00:00.000+08:00

weekend is here and im at home

how nice?

all because li yi is broke.

but still i manage to chill with my gfs(eileen, melissa and kai) ,justin, dennis and daniel.

we went to hongkong cafe then movie. we caught simpson the movie. some parts were very hilarous, some part were lame and dumb. overall the movie isnt that bad tho. 3/5 if you ask me to rate it.

The simpsons movie

then its home after the movie. although i dont feel like going home.

alright, i want to watch ALONE. teewee's sister say its nice. so why not? even tho its horror flick where i couldnt sleep and i'll scream.

today i attempt to stay home and do work. i did do abit not its still not fruitful.

i only manage to finish up CE assignment and BI report where im left with MIIT minireport, MIIT lab and WISP reflection. ah.. never ending. worse still we are going to have quiz every week on thurs and fri. i seriously cant wait for exam to come. then everything will be okay. then WHOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

i almost forgot that my course is planning of an oversea trip to batam. just 2 days 1 night before most of my classmate leave for OIAP. think of it im so sad.=( i will definitely miss them. i havent told my mom about it either.i need permission from her but most prob i think i can go. x)

love or no love

2007-07-27T00:40:00.000+08:00

recently, i got mood swing.
i can be happy and then sad right away.
how come? do i think too much?
i should let nature take its course right?
yes, of course.

today we went ttsh for excursion where we were introduced to the process of moulding and fabricating the plastic like polyethene,EVA, carbon fibre and the list goes on and on. im a patient. not exactly, i volunteered my arms for the guy to make a cast. why? because my teacher's arm is too HAIRY. hahahaha.. couldnt bring back my hand mould because the other teacher sort of dont allow. its like this ;

teacher: you want your hand? bring back la?
*holding the mould*
me: can meh?
*wanting to take the mould*
teacher: can..you sign on it la. then can also put in the lab(he say to the other teacher)
me:*he want to give me or put in lab?* okay okay.. i want

in the end, he brought it back and he just ignore me when i want to take la. basket.its my new arm. my cells is there.

today, yongren and i listen to the mp3 and just nice its beautiful soul. so i shared with her about weisheng. like what he did for me and how sweet is he. she agree that he is very sweet and so on. but its just a past where there's no way to go back there. life just move on..=)

demonstration review on tuesday when i didnt do any improvement. i mean i did but it just couldnt work. worse thing, mr chua couldnt help me solve. he say he dont know whats wrong. if he dont like whats wrong,how would i know? make sense right? like duh. i hate my project!

deadline of work is coming!
MIIT miniproject
CE assignment 2 (done)
BI report (only did some research)
exams approaching and i starting to feel the stress. =(

shld i work or dont work?
please tell me!

culprit

2007-07-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

review is sort of over even though we are given two more weeks to make some improvement.
everyone just didnt have the mood to carry on.

i shall only mention the highlight of the past one week?
more and more chilling session
where we went mos burger, joke and laugh.we stab.LOLS
prata shop for dinner. makansutra and then where i pangseh to join dennis, eileen, mellie and daniel for liquid kitchen =) i love late night. =)
zouk on sat where we got high. shiyuen gt so high.haha.. and many things happen where they make me the culprit.like what the hell? =( i didnt do anything wrong right? i just wanna have fun. hahaha then i shall let the picture do the talking.

upload when my network gets better.
it sucks!

PHOTO TIME

2007-07-15T22:41:00.000+08:00

photo long time ago =)
yongren, yetwei and me
again =)
yongren and i

daniel, mellie, eileen and i
benchew,me,mellie and eileen
chin khai

=)
my gf, mellie
lovely couple =)
dennis and i
my girlfriends! where's kai?

mellie,leow.chinkhai and i

dennis, mellie and i
pretty girls.i love them
poor chin khai, his sock was throw inside the mini pond

darren and chiew san =) lovely couple
people who chilled till late
chin khai and dennis
eileen melissa and me <3> the girls (from the left): chiew shan(darren's gf), isabelle,liyi and leow=)

that moment

2007-07-15T12:39:00.000+08:00

sitting under the dark sky
dim lighting of the surrounding
creating a perfect atmosphere
with youth sitting on the grass
kicking the shallow water with their feet
no frown, no troubles,no worries
but just pure laughter and smile on their face

how nice?=)

went outing with the usual group.
darren and her gf,belle and justin, eileen and dan, ben chew, chin khai, yun fun, dennis and mellie.
we have sushi tei for dinner and then slack at roof top garden.
harry potter for dennis, yunfun, ben chew, chin khai and i. the rest have already catch the movie.another day of late night outing. =) i like.. hahaa.

will upload the photo when i get from leow.=)

anyway, my senior say i look like someone who cant study, who dont have good grades.
quite sad.
i mean this is the impression i give ppl.
i need to change. be more feminine. but i cant because i have already say so many time i wanna change. lols=X
maybe i should really try.
no vulgarites from today onward.
no shouting.

now its time to do work
final presentation slides, study for dtle and then IIT.

FEEL

2007-07-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

feel with your heart =)
search with your soul
i got held back.
in the end
i've decided to wait and see..
someone told me not to wait too long.
or it might just slip away without knowing.

actually, it doesnt matter. =)

enough of my nonsense

WORK
final review on tue
IIT and WISP presentation on wed
IIT quiz on wed
DTLE intermediate test on thurs
ZOUK on sat! =)

life is stress but stress at time. i love chilling out with my friends=)

okay, finally got hold of the photo of dennis and i. but i look UGLY.hair sucks.=(

recently, i have been staying in sch till late.10,9,8pm? haha.. but sometime im so lazy that i went home earlier. =)

i need to shop for more clothes, i can just sit infront of my wardrobe for half an hour and i dont know what to wear.deprived! hahaha.. im weird

suddenly i feel down

2007-07-11T21:06:00.000+08:00

dont know what has got into me?
i feel sad,emo and as if i fall out of love.
damn, im a weird kid.=(

it cant be mood swing.
so what else can it be?

sometime i feel the emptiness
i want someone to be by my side
to share my happiness and trouble
maybe im still not use to being single
eeeeeee
i sucks big time
im an idiot.yucks

mom has the symptoms of fainting on mon and tue
tue she called me, say.. where am i?
she feel like fainting again.
she couldnt remember my hp number at first. like she cant remember much stuffs.
everything to her is unknown to her.
she told me she so scare of dying.
BASKET
she make me fear so much when she say she so afraid of dying
no you wont die. if you die.. i dont know how would i live =(
so please dont. most impt person is you, not dad.

final review is on monday
report done, presentation slide in the making.
IIT and WISP slides are done, presenting next wed.
what i have not done is CE assignment2, MIIT project and BI report. shucks!
and and.. IIT test and DTLE intermediate test! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
why is there so much work?
lets pray after monday, i do not have to continue with project. no examiner review PLEASE. i beg you.

anyway, catch up alittle with winchester after he added me on friendster recently. friends for 4 years? but didnt contact for 2 years? yup. but still we still have lots of topic to talk about. he is still so gentlemen. trainee chef. next time i must ask him to teach me how to cook steak! yes! haha but he is in japan for his holiday. so good. i also want to go japan one day. one day but dont know when will the one day come...

sunday i slept at 3plus,tuesday also 3 plus. i have been sleeping late just to do work, or can say rush work/ report. will i ever breakdown if this carry on? im so tired of studying and going school.. how sia.

thinking of my classmate going OIAP.
i feel quite sad? like i will miss them
we have been together for years and suddenly they are gone for 5 months. how sad?=(
please remember to plan for oversea trip when our attachment end!!

life like this.....

2007-07-07T13:01:00.000+08:00

school and projects

i'm leading a life where i spend most of my time in school. from morning till night i'll be in school. doing project or reports. FYP is coming to an end which im pretty happy although i know i wont do well because of the incomplete work. we are just rushing the report as the date due is on monday. presentation have been postponed to a week later on the 16th. more and more miniproject are coming in. MIIT and CE and there's 2 presentation to go (IIT and WISP). shucks. so many work at a time. i need to CHILLLLL. =(

thinking on the brighter side, by august everything will be OVER.
then i can say goodbye to modules. im just looking forward to exam.. because it will mark the end of school but the beginning of attachment. We sort of got in for DMERI for our attachment. pretty excited but abit scare because we will be an extra pairs of hand and seeing what mdm tan treat or feel about her attachment student, i felt worse.

im kind of sick.
sunday, i gt serious sore throat
monday- slight fever and sore throat
tue- flu and feeling feverish
wed-flu and feeling feverish
thurs-flu and cough
fri-cough and more cough
today-cough and sexy voice.
but its nothing serious.

mom and sis think that i got bf. like what the hell? i go out with guys meaning they are my bf? and i go out with different people. does that mean i have many bf? abit dumb right? she say how come always got guy drive you out for supper.? he sure gt feeling for you right? you never know. yes yes, i will never know but it doesnt mean that he like me plus we are just friend. nothing more than that. i said: "boy and girl = must be bf/gf relationship? abit stupid right" she was quite pissed off after that she walk away.

something are impossible. so we just dont imagine about the impossibility.
like what for?
=)

once again im jobless. but i so want to shop=(
lets pray that arena didnt lost my punch card.please dont.

transformer

2007-06-30T13:40:00.000+08:00

YAY~

after so long, i finally went to catch a movie. obviously its the transformer. i love the action and some part are quite hilarous.i will give it 4/5. go watch it.

anyway, before the movie i went ocs social night with dennis. he picked me up at amk then we head to THE PINE. so many army guys and pretty ladies.i keep looking at the girls, their dressing and face=X typical me. overall the dinner was not bad. my people on my table are friendly and dennis is always there to talk to me.LOL. =) sad to say, i didnt bring camera. but i did took a picture with dennis using his friend's camera. hope it will turn out nice. i'll upload it once i got hold of the photo. we headed to J8 for TRANSFORMER. 11.50pm show. it ended at 2plus am. my butt hurt la. or sitting so long. i feel so awkward wearing a black dress at the cinema. anyway, dennis won a mini fridge/warmer and some gift for the table. =)

im going to work later on. i always DRAGGG going to work but no choice.its for the money

im so eggcited that nikki is coming back next fri! YAYNESS
she say we have to go shopping. but i gt no money!=(
but for sure, we will be going garden for her stingray..
i want a new job.
i want to watch harry potter and the order of the phoenix! =)

work piled up

2007-06-27T23:37:00.001+08:00

there are so many assignment to be done in such a short time:

WISP - presentation on cambodia
DTLE - presentation on infant incubator
Final review!!- project not yet finish and lots more to do,presentation and report havent start doing
IIT - presentation on dubai
flowchart for my programs

result for commont test.
im quite disappointed. dont know whether if i can blame him for disturbing during time.
CE, i didnt do well.fucking disappointed. i mean its not what i expected.
DTLE, didnt do that well either. no A. =(
im so disappointed in myself.
even my tourism quiz, i gt 5/10. 5% of 10%.

one word: disappointed

starhub called to remind me to pay my bill of 190bucks.

i want to go shopping but no money. shucks. money sucks. =(

after so long, i seriously think he is a real bastard and she is a bitch.
he told her, last time he should concentrate on loving her then to me. FUCK YOU.
ive made a good decision. and she is a bitch. seriously. msging norman also wrong? work with norman also wrong? i work for money not to lure her boy.fucker. she think im her.stupid girl.

i want earn more money..

accident pro

2007-06-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

oh yea.im such a accident pro.perhaps im indeed clumsy or down with luck.

HOWS MY FIRST WEEK OF WORK?

GOODA~

im trying to pick up things. i want to learn more, like know the pricing well cause practically, no one is telling me about it till i ask.basket=X maybe they are too busy. so im the buzzer for my station. buzzer= clear ashtray and dirty glass. i seriously think, clearing ashtray is a hazard to me. second hand smoke and ash.yucks. it make my finger nails black and dirty. oh yea.. working here is really an influence. influence to smoke because practically everyone is smoking here. okay not all.. but almost all. im not allow to take order but i still take.those simple orders.=X i want to take order for bottles but i dont know the pricing. the pouring of alcohol for the customer.eeeeek no one is teaching me. wesley and stanley are nice.=) they teach me alot of stuffs not like my station leader.sometime i think she is a bias person but sometime she quite okay? weird tho.

my injuries of the week!

bruise on the leg - customer pushed me and i bang into the platform of the cushion seat.

burnt by cig - customer accidentally swing this cig and land on my palm.LOL this is damn unlucky.no luck, no love.LOL

blister on my leg- stupid shoe. first day of work. my blister bleed alot and i dont feel much pain. best part, the blood stains my shoe even till now there's dried blood.

minor cut from dont know what.

i think thats all for now..hahaha

oh yeah on friday. i think one of the angmoh was high on alcohol. he kept dancing. then he smack my butt when he went past me. the bouncer saw it. the bouncer came to tell me. next time dont let customer touch you.yea i know but what you want me to do? smack him ? im shocked when he smack me.how to react? lols

people at work are fun. they dance along with the music. hours pass so fast. practically,everyone enjoyed working even tho we are tired. we work almost 12hrs. but its good money. there a strong influence for working there. smoking. practically everyone is smoking there.okay maybe not all but most of them are smoker. so its make me a second hand smoker. sheesh.. im going to die earlier.lols.but im not going to get influenced and smoke. i seriously love the friend there even tho im not very close to them but im adapting well. anyway, starvation is here. yesterday i woke up at 2pm.had biscuit, coffee and fruits. left work at 5pm.had milk at 3am during short break. i dont feel that hungry. i seriously think that my stomach is spoilt. yesterday the transport back,im the last to go home. so sad. reach home ard 6plus am. the uncle go to st george road which is at bendemeer, he can go serangoon. but he chose to go toa payoh, amk,yishun, jalan kayu, hougang then my house. best. regretted not joining norman.sheesh..

for working for a week of 3 days,i have earned 200+. why am i so hard up on money? do i have the need to work? i think so. because i have a bill that owe 190bucks. its overdued. so i gt no choice but to find a job with long hours and not so bad pay=) maybe i'll work for a month more then i'll quit because i dont want to let norman down. later they think he always bring ppl in, then they work for a day or afew week then they will quit. it wont be nice right? yup. anyway, i met poon at work. poon is weisheng's friend. i remember he is joker. but he used to have a super duper sexy gf. =)

erwina hate me. i mean if i did something wrong then you hate me. then hate me. if i didnt, for fuck? i think she didnt get things right. she told norman; we(spen and her) both broke up so both needed someone to lean/ rely on. what the fuck. when i heard this, this is what came to my mind; before me and spen broke up you are already contacting him.those stupid msg.dare him to bathe with you in school and so on. after we broke up we patch back, this is within a day. but after that, you still text him with those mushy texts. whose action is wrong. by saying that, she seriously make me think spen is a bastard. why? for wanting someone to lean on.woah. ive make a gd decision.i think she think that im like her. someone who need another to lean or rely on after break up. i dont do such stuffs. i wont lure ppl's bf. im not like you. actually, i shldnt mention abt spen cause its history.i wont mention again. just gt so worked up after knowing what she told norman. i mean if i want to break her and norman up, i have already told him my part of story. but i didnt. dont be a idiot please.

WORKING LIFE IS FUN~

=)

2007-06-16T02:58:00.000+08:00

yesterday elson started talking to me again.he keep telling me that he is so guilty that he cause me to got locked up with them for the drug case which is years ago? when im sec4? around there. so it have been so long that i have talk or meet him. funny guy. anyway, met up with him just now. not bad ah. he didnt change much. still the same size. but theres muscle.lols. we walk alot la. from kovan to serangoon just to eat. from his house to punggol mrt. then from serangoon i walk home.

eh.. im lazy to upload photos. lols. and my network still sucks.
my final theory is on monday. im not even halfway thru my book yet. woah. but i hope i can pass. just like im mugging for exam. lols.

anyway, today i chatted with norman. and some girl went to tell spen abt it and he came to sort of scold me? like what the fuck? he say why must i be so revengeful? why must i spoil ppl's rs.? i mean.. who spoil us first.but forget it,its already over and im happy withit. MOST importantly, i didnt even know they are together. why the hell does she have to be so scare? guilty? paranoid ppl. no more chances left. i hate you more ,for coming to talk to me abt her talking to you about nonsense? dont come and talk to me abt her anymore.

typical routine

2007-06-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

last night was pretty fun i guess?
morning i went to sch till 6pm. basically i wasted my time over there because mr chua wasnt there so i couldnt make sure if my program is working the correct way? so we did some dtle. my topic is baby incubator. nothing much to write. but the target is 1000 to 3000 words. so i must write more. heard we need to list out the supplier for the equipment. the deadline of the report is on saturday,yes this saturday.how nice ? i need to rush on it. watch bridge to terabithia. its so full of imagination?but leslie is so so so pretty. love her eyes. so i reach home ard 7pm. rushed to bath and prepare. by 7.45 im already out of house. meet up with leonard on the train. yet wei was at central mall so we rush there. leonard is still so fair =X and he call me auntie. dont know why. lols. meet up with daniel, yongquan,yet wei then we went to starbucks.the mango cheesecake is so delicious. slowly more ppl came; zheng chuan, cher chuan and zhi quan. went to mos. we are the early birdie. lol. as usual, wey chih is the last person to reach mos. theres so many ppl, so we decide to go to zouk. phuture and zouk is full so we went in by velvet underground.hmmm.. i think because its ladies night so i can go in by there. lols. we had graveyard each, long island tea, vodka tonic and forgot whats the other one.the whole night all of us keep dancing. but we spent alot of time looking for yet wei. she went missing i think because the crowd too big. after1 or 2hrs? we found her. luckily she is smart enough to go and retrieve her bag for her phone. she got home then we went back in for more fun. saw so many people. shaun from acsi, zisky, jasmine from sec sch, hong yun and etc. they saw grace with her bf and benson. i think wed is more fun than weekend. =) cabbed home. my toe nails broke.ppl keep stepping on my toe.basket. lol will post up photo when daniel send it to me =)

term break?

2007-06-12T11:47:00.000+08:00

TERM BREAK is here...

hahaha.. but we still go back to sch. for? rush project. =)
recently i had fun going out with my classmate. sentosa, chilling session at vivo,arcade and so on. did some catching up with friends i never talk to for 2 yrs or more. went out with mingqi and zouk with classmate too.

surprisely, mom wasnt that angry or disapproving me of going zouk. she say.. so really is because your bf tied you up, so now you havoc la? i say.. hmmm.. maybe no? but i just want to have fun. anyway, i saw purple sage girls at zouk.

work.i found a job =) starting work next week.. horray. but schedule isnt out yet.
mingqi gt my shoe and he is going to draw it for me. so happy that im going to have my own shoe.no one has it. wheeeeeee~

i think its a shit day on monday. lost my ezlink. basket. wait for mr chua till 6pm and? still,he isnt free. replacement for ezlink need 21 bucks. no money. still thinking of my phone bill. heck.let it accumulate if its possible. last night, went prata with mingqi at 12am. went to playground to chill. went he driving me back. he suddenly slow down and pause. something is wrong. just to make sure so i ask him is it that he saw something? he say he saw a person/ ghost walking the across the road infront of us. very freaky indeed plus its so damn near my hse la. i almost couldnt fall asleep la.lols

assorted donuts from donut parlour =) only 11bucks

the girls plus one extra =x

uploader hang.basket!

sucks

2007-06-05T08:10:00.000+08:00

last night i posted something.. but there's error. its just some ranting.

later on im having BI test and yet im at chp4 only. havent really started memorising the notes. say good luck to me.

bills and concession price : 150.91

couldnt concentrate on studying last night. dont ask me why.

i know im going to flunk. nobody believe i cannot do well. im not as smart as you think.

lack of time. many things

common test fever!

2007-06-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

what a common test fever.

STRESS is what all im feeling.
i gt 4 modules to mug on. yes you didnt see wrongly mug.
because its so last min work so no choice, just have to mug on them.
till now, i only touch on CE.
how abt DTLE? MIIT? and not to say, BI?
all are killer. lets see how am i suppose to survive.lols
only if im smart enough where i dont have to study. how cool

okok.. see my DINNER OF THE DAY!

looking at it. i know its DISGUSTING.
but it definitely taste good. its campbell mushroom potage with penne. added one can of button mushroom! its so mushroomilicious. =)

okay. study time. shucks!

school days

2007-05-31T10:18:00.000+08:00

what have i been doing? heee...
projects. my SPI project isnt progressing and worse.. zhi quan's program is stuck. because mr chua isnt helping him?
my project can say is a goner. dont know to laugh or cry....

quiz on tourism wasnt good i think. i just whack those i didnt know how to do. its a ten question, fill in the blank question. it consist ten percent of the whole module. woah. lol. one question is 1 percent which is not very little? die die die...

i finally bought my black pant. but it need alteration. my legging, black dress and levis jeans need alteration too.. but where? my aunt or shop? lols.

so its vesak day today.=) a day for me to study. because common test is next week! hahaha.. no time to study already.

i dont wanna think abt it now..
im confused
i dont know what i want
im sorry

coming back =)

2007-05-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

im back to blogging.

lets see, how's life for me?

i think it wasnt as gd as i want it to be. firstly.. i hate the stress im facing in school,especially BPD(bme project design). i totally dislike the work load im receiving. reports after reports. presentation after another.

another thing is that im pretty broke. POK KAI~
now worse thing is...GSS is here!!!!
there is so many things that i want to buy like pants,bags, tops, dress and shoes.. so many..
but it comes back to money.
poor li yi dont have them. so no shopping for her
too bad her sis is selfish or else she can sponsor liyi to shop.

i so want to get this phone F300.
samsung mp3 phone. dual side. slim phone.9.something mm..=)
i love the white version of it. damn pretty.
hope i can get it=)

relationship? isnt going well either.
i dont know what to say.. i want us to be happy..
i dont know why i still hate her so much. no idea. just hate her

im not happy.=(