purpose

its my off day but i chose to go work,
lost the meaning of going out with them
nobody listen,talk or cares.

=)

I'm using the desktop and i went thru the photos in my sister's folder and i came across a photo of my mom and dad holding hands. sweet and it make me tears. dont know why. i love seeing old couples holding hands, maybe thats what love can do? true love. =)

dad and mom, if im not wrong dad and sis brought mom for medical check up at gleneagles. happy and worry thats what i felt.

i cant wait for SE pay to come so my bank will be filled with more money! collected my ck pay so i managed to pay my phone bill;110.75 for 2 months. i must continue to left my bill maintain at 30bucks. lower my expenses BUT STILL I WANNA BUY CLOTHES EH =x fara, rmb that blue top i like at pull and bear? hahaahah i wanna get a shoe to wear for driving

talking abt driving. i make improvement okay, i didnt stall as much. anyway, i went swimming in the afternoon then head to saloon to cut my hair and now, i hate my hair=( and and my instructor allow me to book my TP alr! heh but i think i'll fail for my first attempt. but nvm! i will fa fen tu qiang!

i wanna date fara and sp out on next next sat! =)

outdated photos

" dont take photo of me!"
"dont take my fat arms eh"
mellie and leow
FAT face

i'll post photo of escape outing when eileen send the photo to me =)

eventually

yesterday i was waiting for my bus home and i saw mingqi driving past. called him and he say lets go chill. haha its been months, can say more than 4 months? that i meet him. end up we went gardens for icecream and then head home. =) im proud of him, his band gt into superband competition and his lead singer is a indian? or singh? who can sing chinese. oh my! double WOAH.. haha axis the best! =D

i love my colleagues. they are so nice, that crazy ong chong ming. ee lin who is pretty and cool. ru ting who is bubbly. most of the full timer are super helpful especially patsy. =) technician also quite helpful except kok wah. full of vulgarities.it's a must have in very sentences. even when he sneeze, he will say," cibai" sheesh. then patsy told me to be more careful of one of the technician. actually i also realized he is quite touchy, he touch my hand whenever i pass him the phone. like touch not just to grab the phone. heard he will touch ppl's butt also.arsehole. haha.. all in all, i still quite like this job. the boss here are cute, 3 of them,fat and have big tummy. HAHAHA..

sometimes i think i expect too much from myself.ha.

sometimes i feel that there's no point to shares my problems because sharing with someone doesnt mean it will be solved. because others dont know abt it. if share with all? ppl feel that i need attention or i seek for pity. haha perhaps i think too much.

slowly and eventually, i'll throw it away. but not now...

outta of it

its becoming more and more obvious.. oh well.
new job at sony ericsson, so far so good. love the ppl there. except some arsehole. lols
i want to earn more money so that i can take more driving lesson. all because i sucks in driving. i can turn properly and so on just that i still stall sometime AND im alrdy at 5th lesson. i feel s0 disappointed.

AND AND money keep going out of my bank and none coming in. CK pay not here yet, camp pay also. even with those,i doubt i can survive. food ard working place are ex and dont even mention abt the transport fees as adult. i've spent like 90bucks for 3weeks and 3 days , on transport alone. im not trying to starve myself, but i only had a meal a day because of the cost and one 1hr break for each shift. if i dont work and save, i wont have money. ADD OIL!

anyway, i spend my saturaday with eileen, daniel and chin khai to escape ( love the viking) and then shop for grocery for our steamboat. super healthy, all vegs. lols. surprisingly, still very filling. le grand chef wasnt that bad. that korean actor quite good looking. =)

mom's condition is bad to normal. report not out yet. she went for another blood test on monday.
oh yesterday theres one uncle. damn idiotic! he keep saying he know how to use speed dial. can store until 20+ for speed dial. told him that it can only store till 9 for speed dial. he say okay. then he keep saying once he off his phone. it will hang at the SE logo. it didnt hang la.. just lag. explain to him till i want to vomit blood. nvm. then i taught him to select normal mode and not flight mode. then he say okay. few hours later, he came back and complain that i spoil his phone! he say," that girl la, dont know what she press, now my phone spoil!".bloody arsehole. now he blame me. he anyhow press so now its my fault. make me boil alittle so i talk loudly to him " UNCLE, I ONLY TAUGHT YOU TO SELECT NORMAL MODE INSTEAD OF FLIGHT MODE. I DIDNT ANYHOW PRESS YOUR PHONE OKAY!" the uncle talk so loud also. then we all have to talk loudly to him. stupid uncle.damn you. =X

i wanna buy itouch, go langkawi,bangkok and so on =(
but no $$$$

NTU, FASTER SEND ME THE LETTER LEI. PLS

relapse

mom had a relapse. sort of. The last time she fainted and bleed badly ard may 2007.
This time round was during her sleep. last night i went to sleep with them and ard 5 am, dad shout for me to wake up. mom was breathing so loudly, saliva keep coming out of her mouth with blood and her pillow had blood stains too. Her eyes look weak and her lips was dark red like almost black. she couldnt hear what we say i guess. mom like couldnt move herself either.=( i ask her to open her mouth and drink water? she didnt react.it lasted for 15 mins and she couldnt remember what happen. why is this happening? even the doc dont know. fucking stupid doctors! i dont wanna lose my mom okay. i want her to be healthy... damn.