misses

In less than 9hours, my classmate will be flying to Germany for their attachment
ceyao, zheng chuan and wey chih.
In another 3 days, Daniel and Cher chuan will be leaving too.
It’s so sad... I feel as though I won’t be able to see them again. I will but in 5 months time? It’s quite long but I’ll definitely look forward to picking them up at the airport in 5 month time=)
im so going to miss them. quite badly i guess.
We spend so much time in school doing fyp project, having lesson, meals and even outings together. Everyday and every hour are like gold? We went through the toughest time together and of course the happy moment where everyone laughs so hard.
The 2 weeks we all spent at china, there's so much memories and I sort of grew to live my everyday with them inside it. I feel as if some part of my life is taken away from me. As if I won’t be as happy or life won’t be as happening without them. Their the light of my life? hahax)
My polymates are one bunch of friends who know how to have fun and yet we produce good grades? Not friend that will led us astray.
Will things change in the 5 month times?
I hope we won’t.
Ahh im feeling sad.
My love for my polymates man!

Bowling competition today. So what’s the prize? We won the best team award with the highest total score. We cheat abit here and there. My score wasn’t that bad even without cheating. I mean to me its good enough? My score: 109 and 107 but when we edit the score, its around 115. My arms are aching . Oh ya, the prawn noodle at Kim seng plaza is delicious. Love the soup and the huge prawn. Marina square for shoe hunting but it’s a failure. Sun plaza for chuan's air tickets then Mac to chill. Home is where we go after that. Meeting them in less than 8hours time. Gonna wake up at 3.50am but it’s worth it. Sending them off. Hopefully no one cry or else I might cry too. Damnit.

spoilt

i think my stomach is spoilt
i can dont eat and survive thru the day. without wanting to faint.
saturday, i only had auntie anne
sunday, i had bbq but i didnt eat alot tho
yet i have terrible diarrhoea during the bbq.
today, i had abit of beehoon.no appetite, i will have tummy ache or something wrong with my tummy? no idea.

i dont know why i feel sad. troubled.messed up =(
my phone died on me.
before it died.it was hot till my battery went low and lower then no batt. now it couldnt be turn on. how nice?

part time job part time job
shld i try cafe del mar?

deep down

whats wrong?
comment, opinion and even criticism.
i take them seriously and to heart.
i have no self-confidence in what i wear.
was criticize badly by ppl.
today?
i love ppl to be truthful.
i ought to change and take note of the comment
but i feel it come too suddenly
crashing my heart, moral and dont know whatever shit.
i just dont feel good. i feel like crying on the spot. what for?
it will be dumb.what will ppl think.
its me. i cant blame anyone. because its about me only.
i feel so ugly.
why am i so lousy?

sometime i feel that im left out.
we seem close but still im left out.
maybe im not even in.

i always tell myself its impossible
but now, i really feel its impossible.

never been so down..

exam are over. whats next?

=

i slept at 6am in the morning. woke up at 10am.
liyi gt the urge to go for shopping spree.x)
but who's gonna sponsor her?
damnit.
i want to buy new shoe, tees,jeans and bag for attachment.
how how how?


after miit paper.i can offically announce that i do not have to sit for any examination in ngee ann anymore.it was steamboat where we stuffed ourselves with unhealthy yet tasty food.went pub at boat quay.left around 3am? cant remember tho. came home bathe and chat with winchester.

today im going to stay home.transport fee is expensive so staying home will be a good idea. packed my table, threw away stuffs like photos and bags etc. wardrobe will be next then sweep and mop floor.

dont know why i keep shivering.=(


last saturday was dennis birthday. we all meet up at clarke quay mrt then it was hotstones for dinner. i hope they did enjoy the food although it wasnt really that feeling for the guys i guess. i feel so bad because my boss gave us discount plus no service charge and still we have free drink and cake.ah guilty.lots of photo were taken. 2 camera so this entry will be filled with lots and lots of photo.after dinner, we went to watch secret.i quite like the movie, the twist, jay chou and the love story behind.=)

DO I LOOK LIKE A AUNTIE?

please tell me.

shaun the squirrel say so. something to do with my fringe.damnit!

disturbing paragraph

copied from spencer's blog.ha


i went thru my last break up with much hatred and frustration with the ppl who weren't even in the picture at all. my explanations are suppose to be done by me alone. not by ppl who do not know the entire pic. the one that angers me the most is some ppl, in order to protect its ass, create some story which made me look like the bad guy. and it's cuz of this, my explanations were pushed aside. i spent my days drinking, picked up smoking. and made major mistakes. when these mistakes slapped me in my head, i told myself, enough is enough. stop doing things to show. this ain't the kind of guy that spencer is.


make you look like some bad guy?
you are one.
explanation pushed aside? you gt no guts to tell ppl about it.
so eventually, you blame ppl for drinking smoke and making mistake.
WOAH. how nice.

something meeting his bro in sch give me the urge to tell him about my side of story. all because he didnt dare to tell his mom about it. i feel like screwing things up for him.
thinking about it. what for? maybe he tell his friend how bad i am, thats why yilong gave me that look? and i dont want anything to do with him anymore. dirt. so i shouldnt care right? yes yes..i just feel its not fair. only alvin know whats wrong. nvm, one day she will see his true colour ; his freaking ego and attitude.

=(

MIIT is boring

non-stop studying is a type of DESTRUCTION to our brain.
my mind is in a state where its going to explode. slowly swell then BOMB!

okay,nonsense again x)

oh ya, liyi sleep with her book and notes okay! im so so hardworking.the night before BI paper, i want myself to sleep. another part of me keep telling myself i need to study. end up, i keep waking up to look at the notes for dont know what? cant even see the words? then sleep again. wake up again. look at the notes again.so dumb la. does stress do this to ppl? hahaha..

i remember that time we tried to study at coffeebean at garden. can say its a fail attempt because girls will chat non-stop and take photos here and there right? yes!

* please dont laugh till you drop and get horrified by my photos

hardworking eh?

eat and study at the same time helps =)

at my house (cook and tv)

THE DISTURBING PHOTO!!

DONT GET SHOCK OR DISGUSTED!

SUGARY DONUTS

my bull boxer!

i think she love the wooden chair

photo at grapevine =)

grapevine

my girlfriends

daniel and his pervertic face

chin khai

girls being girls

eileen and darren

sexy legs

my love nice portrait
something similar? justin the medic
specs
drunk by smoothies
oh pretty pretty eileen x)

sexy leg 2

mellie, eileen and dennis

daniel got big mouth=X

people in the car

im once fat

now im slimmer, hehee

*more photo to come for dennis' birthday=)

updates

EXAM
whats over is over
so i shall not brood over it
sheesh

im still surviving and kicking. =)

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when you're gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah, yeah

And all I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

love is in the air
but i cant seem to breathe it
cher chuan's philosophy

maybe it do apply to me
will old love ever come back?

love is blind?

love blind us
the power of love blind us
such that we do think without thinking?
for him, i'll do anything.
thats what we always think when we have a partner.
we want whats best for him or her, no matter what.

people go for the heart because that matter the most.
not the look/appearance.

so what do my sister go for?
company for the moment?
no idea. i cant understand her.
just hope that she know whats right.

counting down, we left 15 days to spend together.
then they will all fly to other countries for attachment
im not looking forward to sending them off =(

should liyi dye her hair black?

GHOSTS ARE HERE!

Today marks the first day of hungry ghost festival.

at 12am sharp, mom and i starting burning joss stick, lighting candle and then burning the incense paper. dad and sis was sleeping, brother didnt bother to help. so only left me and mom. this year is so weird. why? because everyone will help out. but now never.

no more late night outing for me?

not that my mom say no to late night but i think i shldnt. im a hummer too. dont wanna get freak out if i ever see one. i still remember mingqi saw one near my house.sheesh. goosebump.

AND my complexion is like shit now.=(

so i better sleep more and drink more water.

i need to study advance theory and touch CE.

i've actually planned nicely what to study each day since sat but i didnt keep up to it. liyi is too lazy. i need motivation.

Alone. its chinese title is 联体阴. im not sure if its written this way, but the direct translation is siamese twins? yeah. i like the twist in the story. the scary scene, you know that its coming but still? i was shocked. basket. overall the movie wasnt that scary tho.

nice movie are coming up. there's a scary movie that revolve with dolls. i hate dolls, they make me think of chucky. then movie on war of dark and light side. for example, day watch ? forgot the title of the other movie.

when can i get down to grey vibes at far east to have a look at that dress=(

mellie when are you free?

my pretty mellie and me, i look super chubby.lols

quick and brief

a short update.
=)
caught rush hour 3. freaking funny.
grapevine has great ambience and cheap drink.
mango smoothie - super tasty
too bad they dont have aircon!
movie marathon at daniel's house.
later im going to watch ALONE
like finally.
YAYNESS



i want to buy this dress!

shut away

A barrier placed inbetween.

it shall be like this for some time

=)

anyway, i had completed my BI( biomaterial and implant) report.

left with BI lab. i volunteered to do because my grpmate didnt say they want to do and we need to hand up tmr.

yesterday, we are suppose to go sentosa but we didnt. why? keep dragging and waiting. end up watching knocked up at vivo. damn hilarous i must say. imagine liyi laugh till she started shivering. after movie was yoshinoya for dinner. work was fun. good money and easy job. just do survey without any quota. i almost hit 100 survey or else i can get another 25bucks more to my 60bucks. i only had 90 survey,eleven was from weychih where 79 was mine.wasted wasted. but its okay,why? we had free drink and we chose lamborgina which is not cheap. so quite worth the money. after that, we cab home and the taxi driver say," why go home so early? the night is still young" haha.. so i say we go zouk. zouk had super long queue and drunk ppl everywhere. so end up having supper at the prata shop then back home.

on 4th august, dinner at thai express =)mellie and i 3 of uschew and dennisleow and chewdaniel and chewjustin" why you keep taking photo?!""the waiter is damn irritating la""really irritating?!"?!

there's 7 of us: HERE GOES~

1:benjamin chew2: dennis tng3:daniel tan4: justin lim5: eileen leow6: melissa ng7: me! trying hard to act NUAdennis and his crayfish noodlefood?happy 4 year =)mellie and leowdaniel and imellie!the guysthe girlsjustindennis

FACES of mellie

our ugly faces

ugly enough?this is still okaythis is the WORST.

DURIAN FEST

taken long ago =)

diana me and yongren