disturbing paragraph

copied from spencer's blog.ha


i went thru my last break up with much hatred and frustration with the ppl who weren't even in the picture at all. my explanations are suppose to be done by me alone. not by ppl who do not know the entire pic. the one that angers me the most is some ppl, in order to protect its ass, create some story which made me look like the bad guy. and it's cuz of this, my explanations were pushed aside. i spent my days drinking, picked up smoking. and made major mistakes. when these mistakes slapped me in my head, i told myself, enough is enough. stop doing things to show. this ain't the kind of guy that spencer is.


make you look like some bad guy?
you are one.
explanation pushed aside? you gt no guts to tell ppl about it.
so eventually, you blame ppl for drinking smoke and making mistake.
WOAH. how nice.

something meeting his bro in sch give me the urge to tell him about my side of story. all because he didnt dare to tell his mom about it. i feel like screwing things up for him.
thinking about it. what for? maybe he tell his friend how bad i am, thats why yilong gave me that look? and i dont want anything to do with him anymore. dirt. so i shouldnt care right? yes yes..i just feel its not fair. only alvin know whats wrong. nvm, one day she will see his true colour ; his freaking ego and attitude.

=(